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Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

Diana, thank you for those words of encouragement. I am very happy for you that you stuck with the Accutane and are starting to see some results. I've been on a lower dose for about 5 days now and things seem to be a bit better for now. I know the Accutane is now just barely able to fight the sebaceous glands, but maybe it will do the trick over an extended period of time. The side effects have diminished a bit, which is good. Hopefully now my skin will get a chance to heal somewhat and not be so terrorized by the isotretinoin. I'm trying to look at the long-term picture here; to just do what I can to stop the acne for now, and then look forward to having some kind of corrections done for my scars down the road. I need to do this one day at a time, and I once I'm home I'm going to do some serious cognitive behavioral therapy which will hopefully help me to overcome some of the obsession I have with my appearance and allow me to be a bit more self-confident. Being around family and not being so alone anymore is also going to be a blessing. I wish you the best of luck in the future, and I am sooo glad that you're not in that bad spot that you were in just a month ago. Kudos my friend! Take care, all.  (Oct 23, 2007 | post #704)

Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

flossing*, not floosing. lol  (Oct 19, 2007 | post #681)

Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

Thank you for your words of encouragement rcs29. I want to believe that there is a girl out there for me who can look past my flaws, as many as there are, but being here alone has really put me into a funk that I'm finding hard to remove myself from. I hope when I finally get home things will improve (at least mentally), I can re-start therapy, pray that these weird bright red blood spots that spontaneously appear fade, and get a round of hugs from my family. Like, I've seen a lot of strange things happen on the surface of my face, but these marks are a true first. I watched a big one spontaneously occur last night when I was floosing before bed and thus stretched the skin around my mouth. I guess the simple act of stretching the skin caused injury, which leads me to believe they're bursted blood vessels/capillarie s/etc. Ya know what's the hardest, though? Going to work and pretending to be happy when I'm so NOT happy. It sucks!  (Oct 19, 2007 | post #680)

Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

Well, I'm glad to hear that many of you are doing pretty good thus far. Even without being bumped up at all I'm happy that you're seeing some good improvement, Nicole. I've been away because honestly, I'm doing really really poorly. Like I said, this is my third round of Accutane, which has produced some really unfortunate effects for me and has resulted in me having to be lowered down to a low-dose level. My skin is just so battered and fragile from all the accutane and topical medications that I've used over the years that taking any accutane over 40mg is just brutalizing the epidermis of my already scarred face. Small blood vessels are spontaneously bursting and leaving bright red dots that I really really hope will go away. So, I'm currently stuck in a total catch-22: Either I continue taking the accutane and watch my skin continue to look like road-rash, or stop taking the accutane and watch as the oil returns along with all of the postules, whiteheads, and what I can only describe as tiny oil geysers/blisters. I was hoping to do a nice aggressive dose of accutane in order to make this my last time on the medicine and try to keep the sebaceous glands at bay for as long as possible, but it's just not going to work out that way. Low dose is my last option. I'm really fucking depressed, and I'm out here in NYC without any family around (they're back in Seattle). I got dumped by my gf last month, and all I can think about is how god damned ugly I am and I'll never find another person who will like me. I have zero appetite and I can't afford to lose any weight because I'm so thin already. Unfortunately my courage and strength are dissipating and I don't know how to get it back because each day my face seems to worsen and that keeps pulling me down. When I started this round of accutane I had real hope that things would improve, but there's very little hope remaining. And the fact that I'm losing my courage is making more depressed -- how's that for a vicious cycle? I'm REALLY turning into a bitch, and I wish I could stop with all the "woe is me" and crying. In order to do that, though, I feel like I need a glimmer of hope. Right now I don't have that. When I was a freshman in high school I got with a cool crowd a grade above me. To do that I think I was kind of a dick to people; and thought I was a class clown. Looking back I realize I was in fact pretty mean to a lot of kids. Now I'm thinking what has happened to me is karma; or some kind of revenge upon me from above. Guess I deserve this. I dunno.. ONE good thing to look forward to: My lease isn't up until June, but I called my landlord yesterday and told her that I'm so depressed that I can't stay out here anymore. She took mercy upon me and it looks like I'll be moving home in two weeks. I CANNOT wait to be able to get a damned hug from a family member. Being so alone out here has really added to my stress, I think. Sorry that I don't have better news to report, but to know that others are doing better helps make me happy. Good luck to all of you! P.S. I didn't forget about you Nicole and Fran! It was great talking to you.  (Oct 19, 2007 | post #677)

Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

I've had acne (and now scars) for soooo long, but I've never been upfront about my appearance with friends and family. It's just been such an embarrassing topic for me that I've always preferred to avoid the subject and kind of pretend to just be "normal" in order to avoid the issue. It's kind of unbelievable that I've gone so long with this attitude, but I'm beginning to change this. Lately I've started to believe that it would probably be better for my own psyche to just be open about it; and hope that with the issue being out there and on the table it will make me a bit less insecure and ashamed. It really does help to get things off your chest, no matter what is troubling somebody. So I've started discussing how I feel about my appearance with my parents and close family, and it feels good. It makes me feel like I'm not dealing with this solely on my own, and their words of reassurance that nobody is judging me on my looks really help. I know that people who I meet for the first time may have to get to know my personality before they "get over" my appearance, but that's okay. Underneath it all I feel handsome, and if I carry myself with confidence and rely upon my personality then I'll be able to weed out the bad folks and find the good ones. Those first-impressions, though, when meeting new people or when kicking it in a bar or club are still tough, though. Such situations can't help but make me totally over sensitive about what people are thinking about me, but that's the way things are and I can't change that. It's better to deal with it and still go out than stay hidden in my apartment. Above all else, I've stopped with the "why me?!" and wishing I could go back in time to when my skin was perfect. When life hands you lemons, make lemonade! I also know that there are guys coming back from Iraq missing arms, legs, and parts of their face, so if these brave individuals can go through such trauma then the least I can do is be a man about things and keep putting one foot ahead of the other and live my life. Take care, all. :)  (Oct 6, 2007 | post #604)

Accutane -- Worse before Better

Glad you're doing well, Diana. I knew it would happen eventually. JSIQ, if working out makes your situation worse, then stop working out. I know you like to do so and it may be hard to stop, but why don't you just take a break until the Accutane starts to really kick in a make a difference. Once that happens, give it another month and then try working out again and see what happens. We have to make some sacrifices when on this medicine, be it by stopping consumption of alcohol, feeling more tired, or altering our routines, but that's kind of the price we pay for stopping the acne. So yeah, stop working out. I'm not saying to stop exercising, but maybe a long brisk walk or light stuff would be better for now. Give the Accutane a chance to do it's thing, ya know? You're still VERY early into the treatment, so don't stress, man. Take care, all.  (Oct 6, 2007 | post #545)

Accutane -- Worse before Better

Yes, it may take a while but don't think that it's not going to happen. Your sebaceous glands have no immunity to isotretinoin, and they will succumb eventually. I'm in the same boat as you as far as wanting to move on with my cosmetic procedures, and I know it's going to be tough waiting after this course of tane to get some stuff done (maybe Fraxel laser and subcision), but I'm going to just trudge m y way through day by day until the time comes when I can FINALLY revise my acne scars. I seriously dream of that day when I can begin treatment. But for now, on with the tane and out with the active acne! Skater, have patience and minimize stress. Eat healthily and get good rest. The IB will go away, so try not to worry too much and stress yourself out about it. P.S. Haven't heard from Diana in the last two days. I think she's doing better. She deserves it, that's for sure. :)  (Oct 4, 2007 | post #534)

Accutane -- Worse before Better

Scott, when I had very deep cystic acne (on my neck too), it took 5 months before it really began responding. Then I stayed on it an extra 4 months after that. I hope that doesn't scare you, and I'm not saying it will take that long for you too, but I'm just saying it isn't unusual for it to not have cleared at 3 months. So don't start getting frustrated now, because the Accutane is going to work. The acne has nowhere to hide, my friend.  (Oct 4, 2007 | post #529)

Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

Nicole, yeah I'm not quite sure as to how you can prevent the waiting. Maybe your derm could prescribe you an extra 10-pack of pills to get you through the waiting period? Hopefully that wouldn't be too expensive to do. Hang in there, by the time this thing is done with you're going to be happy with the results. I don't doubt it in the slightest. Kay, even if you have a mild breakout at first, your wedding is five whole months away. By that time you won't have seen a pimple for months and months. Don't stress it, and your derm is definitely a rare breed!  (Oct 3, 2007 | post #562)

Accutane -- Worse before Better

Scott, I'm on this med for my 3rd time and even I have to remind myself to be patient and look for results on a monthly basis rather than even a weekly basis. It'll happen, my friend, but it may take some time so don't stress! Diana, very glad to hear that you're starting to see some improvements! Now THAT should help elevate your mood a bit, eh? :)  (Oct 3, 2007 | post #518)

Accutane Side Effects Exposed: Side Effects of the Miracl...

Hey Nicole, I'm still around. Usually my first two hours at work are spent doing nothing but surfing the web, so these are my prime post-writing hours. Are you really taking like entire week breaks off the medicine while you wait to refill your prescription? If so, is there any way you can avoid doing that? There must be, because you want to keep up a constant barrage on your sebaceous glands and not give them a chance to pause and catch their breath. Keep them on the run! I hope you're seeing improvements and aren't getting discouraged. This is my 3rd time and I still have to remind myself that it's a long journey and not to expect results from week to week, but rather from month to month. Personally, my face is looking pretty damned, um, not good. My skin is extremely dried out, which makes my scars look 10x worse, and it's been about 2 1/2 months and I'm still getting some small pimples. The good news is that the pattern of acne is changing and retreating to the back of my face/cheeks, which is a good sign. 5 more months at this dose and I think I'll have done some good. For the time being, however, it's just about trying to stay positive, moisturized, and to not pick at my face AT ALL. When you're on Accutane blemishes tend to go away on their own, even blackheads, and picking will only make matters worse. So no more picking everybody! (Fran!) Paris, I think you may have read a bit too much of the negative literature or somebody freaked you out a bit too much about Accutane. It's not like you're taking poison, and the worst side effect BY FAR is the possibility of birth defects if getting pregnant. Use a heavy sunscreen, definitely try to stay in the shade (not the end of the world), and keep healthy dietary habits. Your back may hurt a bit, but an Advil can do wonders. You'll do fine, and don't freak yourself out about this thing. My first derm (back when I was a teenager) was a lazy bastard and hated having to jump through the hoops of prescribing Accutane so he never gave it to me. He warned that I'd probably have "bloody stool" and possibly go through the torture of the damned if he gave me Accutane, but that I could "still try it if I wanted to..." Scared shitless, I never did. Finally, when I was 20, I realized this guy had done nothing for me with antibiotics and topicals, so I found a new, GOOD derm who prescribed Accutane and changed my life for the better. Keep positive! Acne party this winter in NYC!  (Oct 2, 2007 | post #549)

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