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Rome, NY

You put me on the spot

that would make sense. My bad.  (Aug 22, 2013 | post #14)

Rome, NY

You put me on the spot

what beans am I spilling?  (Aug 21, 2013 | post #11)

Rome, NY

You put me on the spot

And what am I spitting out? I am amazed at some of the responses that happen on this site. I make a statement that I'm sure others were thinking as well.. and am told to "grow up" and now to "spit it out". I'm sure there is a story behind the statement of You put me on the spot. I, as well as others, am curious to here about it. I said nothing derogatory to anyone and implied nothing in my statement. So why the hostility? I'm sure next I'll be told that I'm uneducated and jobless, or maybe even a welfare paid whore. That seems to be what the general consensus on here is. No one has an education except the person writing.. blah blah blah. On a side note: Truism.. are you stalking me? I haven't seen your name grace these posts in quite some time. Now that I have actually replied to one.. boom, there you are.  (Aug 21, 2013 | post #8)

Rome, NY

You put me on the spot

ummm.. really? The best response you can come up with is "grow up"? Intriguing indeed.  (Aug 20, 2013 | post #5)

Rome, NY

You put me on the spot

I hope whoever the hell this is too knows what this is.. lol  (Aug 20, 2013 | post #3)

Rome, NY

good song

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry You don't know how lovely you are I had to find you, tell you I need you Tell you I set you apart Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions Oh, let's go back to the start Running in circles, coming up tails Heads on a science apart Nobody said it was easy It's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be this hard Oh, take me back to the start I was just guessing at numbers and figures Pulling the puzzles apart Questions of science, science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me Oh and I rush to the start Running in circles, chasing our tails Coming back as we are Nobody said it was easy Oh, it's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard I'm going back to the start Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh Ah ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh  (Jun 27, 2013 | post #1)

Rome, NY

chapter _: the red couch affair

then why did you read it?  (Jun 21, 2013 | post #31)

Rome, NY

chapter _: the red couch affair

I'm not sure what you're trying to tell me begme. But I've also had a bad day.. not that I didn't know it was coming, but it felt like a knife through me when I heard. I may have to take a break from writing for a bit, otherwise it may come out angry.. :-(  (Jun 21, 2013 | post #29)

Rome, NY

question

nope, it sure doesn't. I hope you find what you're looking for..  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #10)

Rome, NY

chapter _: the red couch affair

He's an old friend. 18 years or something like that. I was told at our beginning he was nothing but a friend, but after she left I found out that they've actually tried a couple times prior to us and that she fell for him the last time they were together. And I.. Well, am the complete opposite of him, and not what she wants. And that's OK. It's not the ending I wanted, but fairytales belong in books, not life I guess.  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #27)

Rome, NY

chapter _: the red couch affair

I will post how we met when I get home later, but for now I will tell you how I feel now, because that's not going in the book. (I don't think) Depending on where you look, the definition of Love is having a person that makes you happy, but in such, their happiness becomes more important than your own. True love I guess would be that their happiness is so important, that you'd be willing to sacrifice everything for them. We do not work together anymore. Although she is not the only reason I left, she is part of it. I could not heal seeing what I love everyday. She could not concentrate on her new relationship with seeing me. There are moments I regret leaving, but that is more for the friends I left behind then the job. I miss her. I miss her kids. I still find myself waiting for the door to open and see her and them walking in. We don't speak anymore. Haven't seen her since the middle of May. She will be married to him soon.. like real soon, and then they are leaving. It breaks my heart daily, but I'm glad she is happy. I always told her I'd give my world to see her smile.. and in the end, that's exactly what I had to do. Never felt like that for anyone ever before, they became my world... And I had to give it up, for her. I still love her, that will never stop. I have no bad feelings or anger towards her or him, even though some say I should. I try not to think of her, but she never leaves my mind. I'm OK. I have some moments here and there, but that's OK too. As her friend (?) I think they're rushing this too much, as most of her friends think as well. But if she's happy.. who am I to judge? I miss her crooked smile, her laugh. I miss how she fells next to me at night. I miss her crazy hair in the morning and her zombie like gaze when she first wakes up. Her random moments of bursting out singing when you least expect it, and when she actually tried, had an awesome voice. I miss her moments of clarity, when her confusion would disappear momentarily, and we had our long, honest conversations. (that's been gone a long time though) I miss watching her get ready, trying to find her things.. digging through her bag that seemed was bottomless at times. How do I feel about her now? Exactly the same as I did in December before it all fell apart... Exactly the same as I did the day I met her. It was in that moment that our eyes met the my heart was no longer mine.. I tried fighting it, but obviously failed. There comes a certain level of panic that comes when you no longer feel in control of something that I had perfect control of prior to her. Between her and Karma, I was shown a tremendous amount.. That I am capable of feeling, as well as all the things I did wrong before her.. This is not the end. It's just a new chapter, a chance to introduce new characters to the story. As Adele would say; "Never mind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you." And that is true, I do wish all the best for her. I'm glad she's "never been happier". Makes it worth it. I Love her... always.  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #25)

Rome, NY

that's funny

wow salty nuts.. Your intelligence and mature witty comments stun me. I'm not sure what to do or say at this point, after that well thought out intellectual statement.  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #14)

Rome, NY

question

I don't. That answer was as much for a particular person as is was for the one on here asking.  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #8)

Rome, NY

chapter _: the red couch affair

Kind of a crazy idea.. but a couple of you seemed to like this.. hmm seems to be following it some. How about you give me an idea of what you want to read next. I have novels worth of stories I could tell.. but what do you want to see? I don't want to bore topix with mundane details that would be needed in the book if that's not what you want right now.. lol. How we met? What was before? How she looks in my eyes? lee, ha ha ha, and saltynuts, you can f&^k off, and do us a favor and not answer this... I'm comfortable in saying non of us care at this point what you have to say.  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #22)

Rome, NY

question

according to google search, the majority of answers I found was that as long as you have full custody, you do not need permission. However, if there are scheduled visits that are ordered by court, taking them without prior arraignments or new orders would put you in violation of a court order. With that violation, the father could actually press kidnapping charges against you and whoever you are with. Not knowing for sure what you do and do not have in place makes it tough to answer. Read your orders carefully if you have some. Try calling the court for clarification if needed. Good luck in Florida.  (Jun 20, 2013 | post #4)

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