Nov 25, 2012
Hi guys, so I've got something to confess as well:( I screwed up,I feel so bad about myself right now I can't even explain it. I'm quiltly. I was on day 16 clean, I do have so much back pain. I slipped 3 discs on each side 3 years ago, and have been diagnost with degenerative bone disease . So I know the pills r given for a reason. The last week with this cold weather and my spine curving ,it was such hell. I couldn't even carry my son. I go to pain managment ,and get epederals ,and radio frequency ,every month. I just got so tired of meds. And I am still!!! But today my doc called,he said ur meds are ready at rite aid,go get um. U r in pain, I asked for something non narcotic ,he said with my condition nothing else will work. I feel so lost right now, I am ashamed.and have been crying for three hours.I don't know what to do.... (Dec 18, 2012 | post #3537)
oh man, your right. I totally didn't think before I wrote earlier yesterday, I posted about my religious views and how I am praying for all of us. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry also. But we do all have one thing in common ,and that is.... I'm not taking pills today! Again, I apologize as well. I love this na thread and would hate to loose friends over religion and political views. We r all strong to overcome this! Thanks for all your help fellow recovering addicts:) we all need each other:) (Dec 17, 2012 | post #3502)
oh man, I just saw that apology from our friend ,I also would like to apologize for bringing my religious views into the thread. I'm very sorry, to each his own ,its just what works for me. So um how u doin today, I was thinking about u man, with that phone call u were very stressed about. I hope u stayed busy today, I know its rough . R u ok? My call is wed. And I'm nervous as can be. I hate it!! I think I will call tomorrow and say no! Again! I've already called and said ,please ,please stop calling.but I don't understand why they don't stop! It sucks.so r u ok? (Dec 17, 2012 | post #3501)
trust me, I know how u feel.doc called me and left message ,medicine is ready for pick up wed morn. Sucks!!! It's like I pray and pray, and its just so ruff. I am very down right now.trying to stay busy and think positive, but man I feel u. Hang in there k! I can't find kraton anywhere. I've looked at like 10 head shops by me ,and no such luck. But I ha e heard kraton is very addicting as well:( u know I did meth for 5 years straight, disgusting I know. But I withdrawled from it in 4 days,slept 4 days straight and never looked back. That was 10 yrs ago. Now I've been on norcos for 5 years,and withdrawaling from these is nothing compared to that:( (Dec 16, 2012 | post #3492)
is gabapentin bad for u? Or addicting? Sorry , I'm clueless on that:) what is it for? (Dec 16, 2012 | post #3487)
hi recovering friend:) we are so very proud of you, you are strong and can, and will get through this together:)) I haven't wrote to u yet,but I just wanted to say hello,and tell u I read your posts every few hours. You all inspire me to want a life of freedom, this is all of our main goal.... I know its rough, but we have to keep thinking, even if in 3 months we get paws, just think by this time next year it will be a feeling of the past, and by then we will have picked up on so many more hobbies, and things to keep us busy ,rather than sitting home counting out our pills as our main hobby , blah:( I'm praying for u everyday:) I do have a prayer box, with each of your user names in it.and pray for you all a few times a day. God will give us freedom:) not trying to get religious on anyone, so if u don't believe, to each his own. But I will continue to pray because prayer heals our broken hearts:) GOD says come as you are, everyone is broken. No one is perfect, we can't wait to bring our problems to God in thinking he won't take us. He wants us broken,humble,and as is!! Thanks everyone:) (Dec 16, 2012 | post #3484)
I know u were kidding:) it does suck when people tempt us, just by saying I have pills for sale, we know its not true, and don't want to do them.but it does suck, cause it gets your brain thinking about them:( I'm so very proud of u!! U and many other have helped me so much through this, I just want to thank you my dear na friend! This is my na! I know that sounds dumb,but I lead such a busy life, I do not have time or sitters to go to actual meetings.so this is my meetings ,every few hours :) I WWE saying we should be able to earn pins for days clean on here:) and it is a bit difficult when someone in my na meeting (here) is offering pills. I doubt in an actual na meeting,there are people selling there meds! Lol oh ya it is u ,with the great head advice ,I say to myself every like 30 min, "today I will not take pills" it helps for the mental cravings. So thank u:) how's everyone doing today? I know its rough, but I really feel like this thread is filled with caring,kind,loving recovering addicts. I would not have stopped without u all:) christmas is coming so fast:) and we get to see and feel real emotions as our kids wake up Christmas morning and open gifts, and we are all sober, and fresh headed. I'm really looking forward to that!!! How much Melatonin do u all take ? Is 6 mg enough for me? Or should I be taking more? I'm on day 14, had a little set back ,I think I tapered off imodium to quick. Day 6 I took 8, then day 7 I took 4 ,then that was it. And I did start getting withdrawals. So my friend on here said to take 3 again ,and I'm doing much better. just don't know how long to stay on imodium ,don't want withdrawals from it....thanks friends!! Have a beautiful day:) I hope everyone has time today to write on here,cause Christmas season is so stressfull, and I really need you all this weekend:( (Dec 16, 2012 | post #3483)
oh my gosh!! You saved me again my friend, your right !! I took three ,withdrawals gone again!! What the heck :) haha I don't get it, I read so many spots that said don't take longer than three days because of fear of addiction ,so day 6 I took 9 ,then day 7 I took 4 .then I cutt it out, cause I was scared to have imodium withdrawals. But you r totally right! Took three and feel fine again. I actually took them when u posted that,cause I was sweating and couldn't sleep,again. An hour later I knocked out,and just woke up!!! Finally!! Thank u friend, Thanku so much.... So now what?? How long do I take three a day for? And Melatonin , how much do I take a night? 6 mg I don't think is enough? How much do u all take:) please any more info I appreciate. Man I wanted to be good to go by now, I thought there's so many people on here I could help with advice like u all do. And I just don't feel right yet. I'm so proud of all of u, like and forgive me for not remembering the name ,but someone said a few posts back, today I won't take pills! That really works, I say it to myself all day long. So thank u. And also someone said we didn't get into this overnight, so what in the hell makes me think I can get out overnight:( So dang true!! Just hope it doesn't take 5-6 years to get out,as it did to take over me. Another thing for me is I felt so alone in all this, I can't tell anyone. I have beautiful kids, who need me 100%. This stuff messes with our heads so freakin bad, its seriouslly scary stuff. I withdrawled off method, that I did 12 years clean from that. But the withdrawal was nothing compared to this:( and its hard cause we get so down on ourselves, the thing is the people we love don't even know! That's what makes it hard, pills are a drug that knowbody knows we are different when we take them, well at least for norcos ,I don't know about harder stuff. I just want my life back!!!!!! Well I am proud of everyone on here for having courage,and stregth to get through this!! Yikes, what a journey, catch up again in a bit. Hey we should have a way to earn our pins on here for being clean, because this is my na. Thanks (Dec 15, 2012 | post #3469)
good morning:) so question for you.... So today is my 12th day clean. I stopped the imodium with last dose of 4 of them on Monday,was my day 7. Sooo now since tues night ,no imodium, I can't sleep , my legs twitch, I wake at 1:15 every morning the last three nights and can't go back to sleep till 3:30. I'm wide awake,and have to come downstairs. I take Melatonin 6 mg. Is that not enough??? And did I not taper of the imodium slow enough ?? Should I have taken it longer? Why do I feel like day 3 of withdrawals on day 12? No stomach problems though:) (Dec 14, 2012 | post #3464)
hi friend:) I to believe this happens to me, and probally every other recovering addict.we r so used to our emotions being slow, and nothing really matters,when we are on pills. I'm only on day 11. I feel great mentally, I've done so much stuff around the house,major good will trip, emptied bill box. Planned budget for two months worth, and this is stuff I neglected when I was on meds. Oh and coffee, I used to drink 6 to 10 cups a day. But oh my gosh ,I drink 1 in the am now and I feel so wired, I don't like that. It's different when u drink coffee,and wash it down with 5 norcos and 3 somas. Way different! So there are many things we go through with our moods. I can just hear the anger pour out in my voice. Not enough to make me do meds though. I think with our seritonin levels so low, we arnt happy. But we will be:) by this time,next Christmas we will have all our heads leveled out! I take 5 htp, but do still feel off.... Have a beautiful evening:) (Dec 13, 2012 | post #3447)
Hi all:)) well I did it! Thanks to all of you,so very much. Great support and very wise people:) today I am 9 days clean. I feel great! I did the Imodium w/d aid, like u all know. And had really no w/ds, at all! I've been using and abusing for 5 years. This has saved my life! I finally have found freedom...my last Imodium was yesterday morning 6 am. I don't have any w/ds from the imodium. I have so much to do now that I'm not sitting around the house being lazy,on pills, getting frustrated about every little thing that could kill my buzz. I now just get stuff done! I want to thank u all, and to all the new bies that r here detoxing on day 2 and 3, I'm so so excited for your freedom also :) if anyone needs to talk please let me know, or any of the great people here!! God bless you all:)) this thread has saved me ...... (Dec 11, 2012 | post #3434)
Hello all my friends:) sorry I haven't been on here since wed. Well I have been on reading,but haven't posted. Just so happens on day three clean, I caught a bad cold,I think...or was this withdrawals on day three? I think it is a cold, I still have a tissue on my raw nose.think I had a sinus infection as well. Feeling much better today...on day 5 clean!!! Yeah!!! Haven't even thought about meds at all really. The Imodium I am taking and tapering on. Today I took 4 Imodium at 6 am,and 2 more right now. Am I doing ok with the taper ? Or am I still taking to many? Tomorrow is day 6 and I'm only taking 2 in the am ,and one in the afternoon, then Sunday 1 more. And that's it:) will I have withdrawals after Imodium,that is the only thing I'm nervous about.yikes:) please say no, I will be fine .haha then Monday comes and will be 8 days clean.... God bless u all, I hope u all are doing great!!! (Dec 7, 2012 | post #3403)
hello grandma:) just some advice, I to was taking a pain med for pain. Prescribed by a doc. 180 norcos a month. Taking about 15 a day, because they honestlly stopped working . I refuse to take something stronger, so I quit on Sunday. I'm on day 4 clean, and take aleve back. Works well. Now for your withdrawals, and your all ganna say I'm crazy, but I feel for any of u who see no hope.its hard to quit, I know. I started Mon morn taking 18 imodiums 2 times a day. At 6 am ,and 3. Let me tell u ,I have been through withdrawals 5 times,in the last 5 years.and I was just as scared as the next person. But Imodium works!! Buy the off brand. No withdrawals at all!!! I'm not kidding,and would have no motive to make this up! Imodium really works, u don't have to take anything with it, its not a placebo, on day one of w/ds I usually cry all day, and hot/cold flashes, and legs moving by themselves,and no sleep. The Imodium takes it all away!!! I am still in shock ,on day 4 already. And feel normal as can be! Since day 1!! What have u got to loose, try it! Take 18 at 6 am. U will feel normal in an hour. No joke!! Please,please,try it! It saved my life! (Dec 6, 2012 | post #9)
morning all:)) vansclean, you know I think u are totally right, I took the tagamet yesterday morn. From my research, it says take 2, 20 to 30 min before your imodium dose. So I am on day 3 today:) yeah!!! Butt....I am not taking tagamet anymore since yesterday 6 am ,I am still on the twice a day 18 per dose of imodium though. It just may be a placebo adding the tagamet, because I feel exactlly the same with the omodium on its own. And I feel still a bit foggy in the head,it is way different.I have been through w/ds about 5 times,scariest place to be,ever!! The imodium works so well,so I bet I am just so excited that I'm not shaking,hot/cold, crying, all of it never happened!! And my last norco was Sunday night! I'm still in shock my friend:) now tomorrow I will knock down my imodium intake to 15 a dose, then down by three everyday. You are so right with the Melatonin. I take two a night,and haven't slept this good since before the norcos! So my question is ,when on the imodium I feel foggy,did you? And as I taper down off the imodium will the w/ds ever hit me? Did they finally catch up with u? Our dear friend Amgannachange, has said no it did not catch up with her! Another question, when I first started taking norco I had all that energy u all talk about that the pain meds give us, but after a month into using them ,everytime I fell off the wagon and starting getting them again, I felt very lazy, and didn't do things as I would have sober. They dulled me out. To the point where everything felt like such a huge task. Usually when I quit cold/turkey that goes away right away, and I look around and relize man I need to do this and this and that,as I'm crying it out for a week,and getting back on track. K so..... With the imodium ,I don't feel that! I still feel lazy,and out of it,and haven't really had a pick me up kinda sober feeling yet,like all my other cold/turkey quits! Why? That's why I ask about the imodium,and if as I taper down will this foggy feeling go away? And also, say I'm three months in again, I always quit for three months. If I have a really bad day, can I take imodium to relieve that day? Just for one day. Like to prevent. U think that'll work.I'm just so scared for three month mark.I've failed at it time and time again. Well thanks to u all, my day is beautiful....and I will check back with u all in a bit:) Amgannachange, hi:) hope u r doing well today, I am praying for u all throughout my days:) to have faith in yourselves that we can all do this, together. (Dec 5, 2012 | post #3392)
Ok, I'm ganna stop taking the tagamet ,no more ...thanks for the pep talk, I'm trying to train myself to not be scared.mind over matter. I have been through withdrawals about 5 times ,and stayed clean each time for three months.I had no imodium ,didn't even know about it:( but it is the only thing that kept me from quiting again ,because I was so scared of the withdrawals I had remembered from previous times. Now I'm a bit scared cause I am praying the tagamet is not making me feel no w/ds. We will know this afternoon when I don't take it anymore. But you only used the imodium with basically no withdrawals. So I think ill be fine. I'm taking ur advice on everything! Lol thanks so much. The only thing is I feel a bit foggy. Did u feel this ,kinda confused? Feeling. Ok well have a beautiful day, u are now 16 days!?!? Yeah!!!!! (Dec 4, 2012 | post #3378)
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