My conscience motivates me to believe that when devout believers fight over who knows that the god loves them and will punish others ... something is very wrong with the religion itself.<quoted text>
THEN WHAT MOTIVATES YOU?
In that regard I listened to my conscience even as a small child, and that is why theologians could not lure me into their divisive cults by emphasizing that they all knew the truth straight from "god."
You SO MUCH desire to believe that YOU are special, you are willing to believe that the same god that loves you, will punish others.
And you are PROUD of your belief!!!