I understand what you are saying.
The pope has declared there were no animals at the birth of Jesus. So if you have a nativity scene get rid of all those little toy cows, donkeys, goats and sheep. They aren't suppose to be there.(lol)
I have such wonderful memories of Christmas with my children.
On Christmas eve,I would read the Christmas story from the Bible to them.
We would sing Christmas hymns in the room where the Christmas tree was standing all lit up with white lights.
Candles in the windows also,representing that Jesus is the light of the world.
And a white dove on top of the tree.
I still use that white dove,that represents the Holy Spirit.
Before they went to bed,I would read them The Night Before Christmas.
I alway's made sure they knew the real meaning of Christmas.
I have alway's had a nativity scene,usually I place it under the tree,
because it is Christ that is the gift that God gave to us out of His love for us.
Whether or not there were animals there, makes no difference.
Our focus should be on Christ only.
I am not Catholic Micheal.Christ died for us all.
As long as we are in the flesh,we are going to make mistakes.
We are going to sin.
That's why I believe it's a repentant way.
We need to focus on our Lord, instead of what others say and do.
Though you are still searching,He does love you and wants you to come to him.
I promise you this,if you have faith,believe and accept Him into your heart,you will never regret it.
Please ponder on this.It's so important to your soul.
None of us has a promise of tomorrow.
I want to see you in Heaven.