My "protector"? Oh, sure...whatever the voices in your head tell you.<quoted text>
I only get home a few times a year. Living abroad is pretty nice. Uncle Sam takes good care of those of us who take care of the nation.
Insecure? It is always funny that people like you expect your protectors to be kind hearted souls.
Let's pretend you are not spinning yarns to puff yourself up. In that case, they need to send you home permanently. Your hatred for your own country and fellow countrymen is probably not doing us any good overseas.
Assuming your cock & bull story isn't just a fabrication, you are no diplomat, unless arrogance, ignorance and self-importance are traits that work in that kind of career. You have about as much tact as a turd in a punch bowl. I can't see how someone like you could have gotten past the State Department's security or psych test. Not to mention a basic intelligence test.
Perhaps you were bitten by a mosquito and have contracted some tropical disease that affects your brain? I wouldn't put that totally off the list of possibilities. Are you always so hateful towards others? Or is this just your Topix persona? seriously dude, you need help, medical, mystical or psychological...whatever.