"I was never actively gay, never had any encounters with men -- never had moments when I failed and actually had sex with other men," he said."Mormon 'Gay Cure' Study Used Electric Shocks Against Homosexual Feelings
John Cameron said he was a naive and devout Mormon who felt "out of sync" with the world, when he volunteered to be part of a study of "electric aversion therapy" in 1976 at Utah's Brigham Young University.
Twice a week for six months, he jolted himself with painful shocks to the penis to rid himself of his attraction to men.
"I kept trying to fight it, praying and fasting and abstaining and being the best person I could," said Cameron, now a 59-year-old playwright and head of the acting program at the University of Iowa.
"I was never actively gay, never had any encounters with men -- never had moments when I failed and actually had sex with other men," he said.
But his undercurrent of feelings put him in direct conflict with the Church of Jesus Christ of the Latter-day Saints (LDS) and its principles.
"Cameron had dated girls at BYU and even been engaged a couple of times, but said he always knew those relationships were doomed to failure."
So we have a man that would actually be analyzed by a shrink as bisexual with a strong lean for men.
In shock therapy he was aroused by both male and female erotica. Gay men don't repeatedly date straight women as a test to see if their attracted to them. They don't go so far as while believing they're gay to become engaged with a female. Not unless they know they're 100% gay and have always been 100% gay and are using females to hide the fact from others that they are gay.
The guy is obviously bisexual with a strong lean for men, simple to see. And while a youth not understanding his dual attraction branded him a bisexual, not a gay man revolted by females, I'm suppose to pity his ignorance?
And then this....way to funny seriously...
"He then had me visualize Jesus coming down through the ceiling and utterly destroying Gay Connell to dust and then 'a mighty wind' blowing all the dust away," said O'Donovan. "This is the single most emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually crippling experience of my entire life."
And he willingly subjected himself to that traumatic event. At least he takes responsibility and acknowledges his own idiocy for not understanding what he was sexually.