Did you ever consider maybe it was your mommy and daddy as to the reason you are the way you are...Life has not yet broke me to the point of suicide ... yet I understand that it is only because my life has been one of more emotional comfort than those who have been broken.
Had I believed I was broken, as has occurred because of religion to so many homosexuals ... I might also have been driven by emotion to commit suicide.
It's not nice to tell others that they offend a god. That teaching kills self-esteem.
We all want to feel that we are important.
I feel sorry for you...honestly