Yes, that's what I said, you did it by rote but had no faith, no interest in Him, even though He was there all along. There's that "personal relationship", that "I", again. It's starting to become clearer how one can reject Christ in the Eucharist without giving it a second thought. It's still astounding to me, though. Another clue is your use of the words "your church". It's not my Church, it's His. This is very interesting.
Ah, but maybe she did it by rote, because that is the way it was presented to her. i.e. Learn by rote, not by searching out the Truth....
So we find God, by getting out of our "rote".
The first time I entered a RCC I was overwhelmed by the feeling of coming home. And that is one of the ways God uses our physical surroundings, to console us along our journey.
Perhaps, and I think this is the exception, is that you connected being consoled within what you were taught. The formation of your conscience and teachings helped keep you within the RCC. It seems most people do not have the similar journey, but must go out on a pilgrimage to find the deeper meaning and relationship with God.