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You had a NDE. You quite obviously didn't cross over and return. Why do you continue to use it as an absolute reference?
A very sudden surprise. A realization I just had a serious encounter with physical forces, then a compulsion to get up and see what happened, which then turned into a trip through a black tunnel and emergence with the same consciousness I always had. I was surveying the scene and agonizing over the work I had to do to bring order to it. It was just an everyday sort of thinking we do. Then I became alerted to a green smoky trail leading from where I started and into me. My reaction was as if I was being attacked by a snake, which I then wrestled with rather violently. It was all a surprise. From there came the realization I had just died, which is a rather emotional moment in one's life. Then a resigning to fate and an awakening in another realm with consciousness changes along the way. Such as how we think here. Memory banks were all gone, language was all gone, these physical frames of reference we learn were all gone. Pretty much basic existence and emotion. I saw, I did, but can't say I thought much about it. I was aware, but not in a real intellectual mode.
Even though I just went through the realization I died, and the emotional agony, which was really based upon the sudden event, and it being the result of just a traffic accident, not one single thought, instinct, or any sort of anticipation of my ceasing to exist, or going to sleep forever occurred to me. The concept was just not there. Every bit of it was just losing a spot in this particular existence. I did prepare for a jump to another existence, which surprisingly I seemed to be jumping into fully formed and functional, but not anticipating with much eagerness. It was a primitive and hostile environment I was headed into. Even though my consciousness was totally disconnected from my body, there was still a link that enabled me to return after being alerted I was still a viable physical entity, though damaged.
A severely wounded animal whose consciousness was going through the throes of death. With a new existence waiting inches away. Not one single glimmer of a possibility my "self" was about to expire en toto. I was atheist.
I had a future. I was enabled to come back to this one. And as I mentioned, there was an awakening after resigning myself to my demise here.
The experience did not lend itself very well to the Topix atheist belief and faith they just close their eyes and drift off into eternal unconsciousness.
There were many more aspects to the experience that point to some misconceptions about "reality", but the fact is I wasn't being terminated eternally.
Been there, done that, got the T-shirt. And I didn't get my underwear back in the hospital.