At least you are willing to ask questions! That is a far cry better than most theists we experience on here.<quoted text>
Indeed. That is what so fascinating.The desire and need to know where,how and why.Its the central mystery of our lives.
Please keep in mind the immortal words of Isaac Asimov --
"Are there things in the Universe that we cannot know in the usual way of observing and measuring, but that we can know in some other way -- intuition, revelation, mad insight?
"If so, how can you know that what you know in these non-knowing ways is really so?
"Anything you know without knowing, others can know only through your flat statement without any proof other than 'I know!'
"All this leads to such madness that I, for one, am content with the knowable. That is enough to know."