That's such a heart-breaking experience, and I'm so sorry to hear that you had to go through that. I really think you need to find an outlet, a way to help start the healing process. I know from personal experience that if the feelings build up without being released, it can lead to desperate and unhealthy alternatives. I was never good with talking to anybody else face to face, so my outlet was writing and crying (poems, mostly). I know everyone has different ways of handling their pain, but I think it is important to let all your feelings out somehow.because he let a crazy man take my father away from me and made me watch my father die in a horribe way that noone should see or it have it happen too them , and u didnt let the man kill me i begged him for it he wouldnt then i prayed over my dad too save him and the man kill me , u never let it happen now im alone and i have noone in my life, he died on sept.11 of 08 and his birthday is on the 18th of this month and i miss him he would be 49 yrs old and that was the last time i prayed when he didnt save my father nor let that man kill me too so i wouldnt be alone. i hate everything in life now , when i used too have so much fun, now he has taken that away from me
Just by reading some of the posts in this thread, regardless of peoples beliefs, there are people who care about you.