((((((((((hugs))))))))))Hi everyone. Trolls and real people.
I don't know where else to share, knowing I can't share with family and friends but here I go.
I found a lump two Mondays ago. Money dictates I had to wait until today to get it checked out.
The doctor didn't find one lump. He found three. With my family history, he ordered mammograms plus ultrasounds immediately. I told him I don't have any money like that (the price for one breast without US was 257) for two weeks (WITHOUT EATING), and even that was not the complete exam I needed.
3 out of 4 women (mom and aunts) had breast cancer.
I am scared.
I am scared that the tests that I have to get finance for will not be good (Odin be willing, I will get approved for moneys.)
I am scared that I cannot afford to survive this.
Thanks to religious initiatives, I can't even get any help with mammos, cancer testing or any other further treatment that I may need thanks to Dean Heller's assault on womens' healthcare.
I told my doctor I had to wait two weeks to even test one breast. He told me, that's too long to wait.
I am sad. I am enraged. I have worked in the medical industry for 16 years and not only am I not provided benefits, I certainly can't afford them. And based on this history, family and familiar, I can't even share this information, lest I pull on the heart strings of friends and family unduly financially or emotionally compromising others. That is not even worth it to me.
I can only "pray" READ hope that if my kitty outlives me, he will be spoiled and pampered.
keeping you close to my heart and in my thoughts. sending you positive healing energy.