I'm so sorry Hagen.Hi everyone. Trolls and real people.
I don't know where else to share, knowing I can't share with family and friends but here I go.
I found a lump two Mondays ago. Money dictates I had to wait until today to get it checked out.
The doctor didn't find one lump. He found three. With my family history, he ordered mammograms plus ultrasounds immediately. I told him I don't have any money like that (the price for one breast without US was 257) for two weeks (WITHOUT EATING), and even that was not the complete exam I needed.
3 out of 4 women (mom and aunts) had breast cancer.
I am scared.
I am scared that the tests that I have to get finance for will not be good (Odin be willing, I will get approved for moneys.)
I am scared that I cannot afford to survive this.
Thanks to religious initiatives, I can't even get any help with mammos, cancer testing or any other further treatment that I may need thanks to Dean Heller's assault on womens' healthcare.
I told my doctor I had to wait two weeks to even test one breast. He told me, that's too long to wait.
I am sad. I am enraged. I have worked in the medical industry for 16 years and not only am I not provided benefits, I certainly can't afford them. And based on this history, family and familiar, I can't even share this information, lest I pull on the heart strings of friends and family unduly financially or emotionally compromising others. That is not even worth it to me.
I can only "pray" READ hope that if my kitty outlives me, he will be spoiled and pampered.
I've always adored/admired you from afar.....
May 'good' news be in your future.