So I need the thing before I can have the thing? Lol. Okaaaay.<quoted text>He knows you do not understand with the enlightenment of the Holy Spirit, since you are not yet saved. So you read/study the Bible in the flesh, and are still lacking the wisdom and understanding which the Holy Spirit would provide you.
After you are born again, you will read it with different eyes and a different mind. Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus.
As it happens I've been-there-done-that. I was a born-again Christian. I honestly and earnestly asked Jesus to be my personal Lord and savior. That was before I had studied the Bible. As I started to take the Bible seriously, I saw it was flawed, and could not have been inspired by any deity.
Ex-born-agains are problematic for the Christian claim that God accepts everyone who honestly seeks it. Plenty of people do that, only to discover that it's all projection. And even if it were not projection, you still have alot of people who honestly sought a God who avoided and hid from them.
So the only real retort a Christian has is "you were never a *real* Christian". So what is a real Christian, and if honestly seeking God doesn't work, then what does?