So, you admit that God does not need your belief but you need it in order to have a 'relationship' with a supernatural being. Good. That's a start on the road to sanity.<quoted text>
of course i'm aware that God is not dependent upon me or my belief in Him. BUT what kind of relationship could we have if it wasn't based on belief/trust? you see, unbelief in the obvious is merely an obstinant denial because of an offense that's coming between 2 individuals. i.e., the angry wife says to the husband "i'm going to pretend you're not there and just ignore you".
because of Jesus' finished work on the cross, there is NOTHING in the way between you and God the Father. why are you acting in unbelief as tho there were???
If everything is finished, why do you still believe that Armageddon will end it? You don't think things through to their logical end, do you?