I don't find that hard to appreciate. That's my position, too.I desire to understand why you find it hard to appreciate that if natural intelligence exists, that intelligence may have designed and/or be guiding the development of the natural world.
But "may" might mean something different to me than to you. To me, it means not yet shown to be impossible, which really isn't very interesting. What we care about is what is actual and what can be made actual. There is infinitely more that is simply an idea that cannot yet be ruled out, like Russell's teapot and leprechauns.
I can't say that it couldn't have, and I don't. But what can I do with that knowledge? It isn't grounds for believing that such a thing actually happened, or that intelligence at that scale exists.Why couldn't natural intelligence cause the formation of the universe by intelligently designing; even by evolution in as much as it is a process that can be used to create intelligently?
Why should I embrace that concept? I don't have need for a god, not psychologically, and not philosophically. If I did, I might follow you.