IMO<quoted text>Christians should not blame you. They not know you. They don't know the road you traveled in life. You have the right to blame God for not revealing Himself to you after you committed to Yeshua.
So then you only have two choice.
1. Disregard Yeshua Messiah. Conclude the foundation of Christianity which is Jesus Christ is myth and does not exist because you applied yourself with all sincerity and honesty before God (I presume)--so then your only option is to turn your back---walk away and conclude a myth and Christianity is a charlatan false religion.
That choice 1.
2. Commit yourself with all your heart, mind, and strength for the rest of your days to get this God YHWH Almighty to tell you why there is no confirmation of him in your life even though you embraced Jesus Christ.
Seek why does YHWH ignore you. Why. Is it worth it to you? is it worth seeking that answer that you may only get on your death bed---or you may not get an answer at all. Is Jesus Christ worth that kind of lifetime investment to you? Is pursing that goal a desire for you?
Or just screw it---live life, forget Jesus and when you die--you die.
To be honest with you writer---it would be tough for me to choose 1 or 2. I just happy Yeshua was revealed to me so that I don't have to choose.
damn if you do---damn if you don't. Religion sucks for many.
The fault was not God's or Ians
Ians sincerely tried, but hoping something to be true an believing it is are two very different things
I believe seek and ye shall find is not to convince those with doubts but rather a promise to those who have committed to the belief in God and want to know Him
Credit to Ians for being open-minded. But open-minded is not the same as belief
I don't know why it takes belief before God will reveal Himself but I suppose that is the purpose of faith. And I don't know why some are able to believe and others not. I would understand why one religion and not another or why no organized religion but still a belief in God. But to reject the idea of a higher power all together seems to be more of a result of how someone thinks. There isn't a right or wrong to it , it just is how it is
And not to try to use this as some sort of "see I told you" approach by any means. But instead just want to sincerely suggest you consider his story when we talk about unbelievers and do they deserve eternal damnation. Whether that is what hell is can always be a different subject.
Although to be clear, i find simple unbelief and mockers to be two different things as well