I enjoyed today and saw a whale from a distance. The second time this vacation and something that is very rare here. My wife was born here and lived her first 20 some years here, but claims she never heard of whales being seen near here when she lived here.<quoted text>
Mental illness...suicidal thoughts...many other afflictions are kept secret out of shame and embarrassment...not only those afflicted but by their families. As long as we "hide" or refuse to discuss we are lending to and not resolving the problem.
One of the things that I have experienced is having someone depend on me to solve their problems...make things better...make me the one to create joy once again. It was an impossible task...it also sucked the life out of me...always having to be responsible for someone elses life...at least that is how I felt.
It ended tragically in suicide...leaving me feeling as if I had not done enough...wondering what I could have done differently.
It took a long time...years...for me to realize...I did all that I could...that I was not responsible.
I live in the middle of a fairly good size city...many homeless walk the streets...I can watch them from my balcony. A portion of those homeless obviously suffer from mental illness...my heart breaks for them...I am sure that at some point in their lives they were vibrant contributing members of society. Now they walk along...looking at watches where there is not watch...talking on phones that either aren't there or have no service...sitting in the middle of an intersection changing their socks while traffic zooms by them. My heart breaks because there will probably never be any help for them.
I applaud you Boots for standing up and seeking help.
Hope that you enjoy the rest of your vacation!
Sadly we have 5 nights left near the sea, then a few nights a few miles inland at her sister's home before we fly back to Canada. We have been here as long or longer than our summer holidays were when we were kids, and they seemed to last forever, whereas it seems like only a few days to us now.