When the man who had molested me when I was young (also of course in my book "The Morning Star' which promotes the strength of Prayer, called me a liar for confronting him in front of my Mother and Sister, shot and killed my six month old Golden Labrador, you could say I was devastated.<quoted text>
GOD: THE ABUSIVE BOYFRIEND
Ways the Christian God is like the most extreme version of an abusive (and possibly psychotic) boyfriend:
 Needs constant praise.
 Makes you feel guilty for just being human.
 Has severe jealousy issues.
 He lets painful experiences happen to you that he could easily prevent, just to test your devotion to Him.
 Claims credit for everything good in your life; claims nothing bad in your life comes from Him.
 Threatens you with eternal torture if you ever leave Him.
 He is constantly swearing that He loves you and you need Him.
Ways to tell if you are in danger of being taken advantage of in a relationship with this abusive God:
 You are highly defensive of Him from even the slightest criticism of His flaws.
 You talk to Him every night, and He never responds yet still expects unwavering devotion.
This is old news, so I don't want to bore those that know me well with this old carp again, but GOD and Prayer got me through those times of laying in bed breaking my heart. I could not cry, the sobs would wrack my body and I would not be able to breathe.... so I held it in, and gave it to GOD.
HE gave me a Shetland Pony (Fury) to love and recover with, and when I prayed and prayed to keep evil away, I had a Golden Labrador knocking on my door each Sunday for weeks, and when he stopped coming, I realised my head was not filled with voices that really did appear to be evil, which was why I prayed so much to begin with.
No-one can tell me that Prayer does not work and that GOD is not there; it is just that we have to reach out to receive. And guess what? All of your accusations have been against GOD, and not about the man(kind) that deliver them!!
And yep, I will be Praising his GODLINESS until my dying day, and thanking HIM always for getting me through that which was unbearable. Recall, I have a heart they say cares too much, and I have said simply, let me care, that is what a heart is for :)