Having been a battered spouse, I can assure you it is not like knowing JESUS. Not even sure why you posted this, because I have lost so many pages, but let me tell you from experience, being scared to death is literally scary. Not sure if you recall when I wrote that I took my 2 children and 'ran away' with them, and encountered evil where I was living. This was the start of continual Prayer, and the encounter with the Golden Labrador that came knocking on my door..... Amazing stuff!!<quoted text>
You see that the concept of "love" is not universally defined.
I think much of Christian theology can only be described as a form of Stockholm Syndrome. Maybe Battered Spouse Syndrome would be a better explanation.
Thank GOD for being there; but I guess we only thank HIM when we know HE has been there when we needed HIM.