We may actually be more on the same page than you might have imagined CS. I will try to be more precise in my diction also.<quoted text>
You no longer are required to test my patience Mr. 42 with language such as the above Mr. 42, because I have have forgiven the past and wish to move forward.
I also grew up fighting. My sparring sessions with my cousins were no childs play either. My sifu (Lowe Leung) lived just up the street from where I lived. I practiced Kung Fu (Eagle Claw, Win Lun) and Kick Boxing for years. I was going to get into Ninjatos, Katanas, Kunai knives, spears and shurikens but I decided to stop. I am not a big man by any means, I am very slender built but very athletic. I eat right and exercise but I generate a lot of power and speed in my kicks and punches. Being afraid is not something I do too well. Foolishly it used to get me in a lot of trouble going to school.
Now, I'm a respected person in my community. I teach youth on the streets, I teach Tai Chi also (or at least I used to) and I go to work 5 days a week. I have a family that I love dearly and I just buried my dad (may he rest in peace) on Saturday. I don't go looking for trouble and I don't recommend people hunt me down to find it. I am on a more spiritual path now more than just physical. It takes a lot of patience and I am certainly not perfect, but I am learning though I do have my short-comings.
Besides, you speak about me being godly. Allow me to clear that up if you don't mind; I'm not godly at all you see because I don't believe the Almighty Creator that I worship is a god or a common deity made and fashioned in the mind or with the hands of man. I am no bully, I assure you. I had to learn how to effectively defend myself against them and worse. I must admit, I did struggle a bit to understand your above broken English, but I managed somehow. I hope we understand each other a bit better.
Shalom Mr. 42.