Hey Larry,<quoted text>
With all due respect Granny:
1. I think we most certainly do deserve His forgiveness. We are put in a circumstance where we can't live up to expectations. Its like me putting a cake in front of a two year old and saying don't eat the cake and then leaving the room. When you come back and the cake is all over the room and the child. who could you possibly blame? The child or myself for putting the child in a circumstance he can't possibly resist.
2. Jesus should feel nothing personal about sin and how He is percieved. For what ever reason (and its never been explained in a way that makes sense to me) Satan is let loose on earth to win souls. And he will win souls over. A christian will believe he has won me over. I don't see it that way. I have nothing personal against Jesus. I don't love worldly things more than Him or my salvation. I don't love or cherish sin. If He wants me to love Him all He needs to do is reveal Himself to me. Its all I've ever asked of Him since my search began in earnest.
But never the less it was Gods decision to let Satan loose on earth. It doesn't make sense, He owes Satan nothing, from what I've read in the bible but still he chose to loose him to take souls with him to hell.
I don't know if you've ever heard of Medjugorje. But there are supposedly visionaries there. Recently a visionary revealed that God gave Satan permision to attack His church for 100 years. I don't believe in that nonsense, but millions do. Lets give christianity the benefit of the doubt for a second (at least on my part). Why would God do this? What in the Heck does he owe Satan that he He puts human souls at risk?
You are right. There is no way that we can follow all of those rules/laws perfectly. I believe that is why He sent Jesus. Jesus did fulfill and obey every single law that was ever made in those days. He was perfect. Because of that perfection and my identifying with the Christ, I am seen as perfect, in God's eyes.
It is hard to understand and that is where the faith part comes in. I have faith in God. He has my back. He knows all of the mysteries of life. No one has to explain a thing to Him. I just have to trust Him.
There was a time when I thought that God had really let me down. I had to come to the realization that God knew the future. He knew what was best. It most certainly did not seem the best to me, but then again, I don't have the mind of God. I have the mind of Denie, frail, imperfect, human.
Larry, you mean so much to me. I just want you to know. Sorry to get all mushy but I do consider you my close brother. You know that already. Thank you for all of the times you have come to my defence. I just wanted to tell you.