Since childhood I was never attracted to formal religion and would laugh at religions, scriptures, rituals and prophets and their sill teachings.<quoted text>
Do you honestly see yourself as the OPPOSITE of perverse and intellectually inferior?
I would simply laugh at the rabbis, priests, maulvis and pundits and held them in very low esteem.
Those who're ritualistic and those who stick to this or that religion are the most retarded and perverse human beings who lack intelligence and sincerity.
Intellectually, I have experienced some of the very best and have the inherent capacity for even greater achievements.
I was always interested in directly experiencing truth in its various dimensions and since the age of 4 I have been spontaneously "seeing" things in the supraphysical dimensions.
Then at age 8 or so, this subtle faculty shut down and only re-activated when I was 21 or so.
The savage intrusion into my life of my ex-master has been a bad experience and could have been a well-planned ploy of the adverse forces to stall my progress or kill me.
It often happens that when a person has the innate gift of mysticism the asura forces plot the downfall of such a person and they often succeed.... I am lucky to have escaped their clutches till now though given the vindictiveness of that man he may well succeed in eliminating me...
Well, whatever be the outcome, I am happy that I've got/getting direct glimpses/contacts with the supraphysical states of consciousness and have learned much despite the attacks and suffering.
The descents of the higher force are still continuing and have kept me from being killed by those asuras, till now.
Yesterday, I was in a terrible condition but since today morning by say 3 am the higher force began descending into me and drove away the perverse forces trying to attack me. Let's see how long this see-saw condition goes on....much will depend on my innate fighting capacity and the will to live and progress.
Anyway, all this can be understood only by those gifted few who are directly in the yoga.