In the mix of your atheist ideology there lays a sadist disorder. A ďSadist,Ē is one who enjoys inflecting pain. It most likely spawned from your childhood. This kind of disorder is seen in people for example who like to torture animals.Like when your god had millions of Jews killed so the state of Israel could be reformed?
Gramps, your long winded Abe Simpson style ramblings and senile opinions just can't change the facts.
Just accept it.
Oh and Jesus, if he ever existed, was 96% chimpanzee.
Now I believe it is time for your prune juice.
If you tortured animals in your childhood is not known at this point. What is known is your cruelty and coldness in your post. I would describe it as abnormal and uncharacteristic of normal human behavior.
You have tried to paint over this sadism by claiming you are a humanitarian. Making routine trips to the Philippines to save the little starving children from the evils of Christianity.
The cause of sadism is not fully known but it is believed to have been a result of something that happened in your childhood. A good physiologist could perhaps uncover what it is that has made this sadism evolve in your persona.
Issues, real deep issues hidden within your soul. Has driven you to hate and enjoy inflecting harm on others. You have lived your whole life with this dark secret. Perhaps itís time for you to consider to get healing for your mind.