I had read the NT through and through many times as a youth, but the OT was really horrid stuff. I'd never read it through until I took a college level class on the thing-- took 9 months to complete, and we went through the whole ugly thing.<quoted text>
When I actually started to look up verses that atheists had thrown at me for years...I was appalled! I couldn't believe that I had spent my entire life believing the things that I did and never questioning. It's amazing the amount of conditioning that goes into the youth of a church (any church). We were trained to only know certain responses, and I did like most people do and never actually read the bible in it's entirety. I still have yet to do it, but I am becoming more and more inspired to, simply because I want to dive into the fiction of it as just a book lol. I also want to be able to attempt to show people the insanity of it all. I may never change someone's mind, but I'm certainly glad that my boyfriend has been around for the two years that I have been finding the truth. He's always been there to kindly tell me where my thinking has been trashed over the years. It has really helped.
When I started, I had no real idea just how horrid it was. That course later was instrumental in my eventual loss of faith.(yeah, I'm an ex christian too)