In brief I went through over 20 yrs of real nightmares ,although they were separated from my own reality ,they still help to shape you personality.
I escaped that as a whole ,although always aware of "that edge"
I had some trauma & felt I may be somehow letting "IT" come back somehow? a brief look at that. Rick
"IT'S NOT THE CRAZY PEOPLE YOU WORRY ABOUT-IT'S THE ONES THAT DON'T KNOW IT" R.C.
I wouldn't know,have never been driven to be insane,but have been driven to be sane 4 times usually by car,but I did take the bus once.
Reality can be a step in the wrong direction,to confining ,seem to be more comfortable knowing it is only a small step back to be seen as insane & not a BIG LEAP .
When jumping backwards it means you can't see what's behind you,then if it's to big of a gap instead of a fine line ,you will surely stumble & crash into that unknown abyss between the the two.
When your stripped down to nothing,you won't care if your socks match or your coats dirty. 100 degrees seems mighty cool compared to our vision of HELL!
When does your soul freeze? is it measured in Fahrenheit or Celsius?
I see it as more of a game we play with mostly other peoples perceptions of reality .
"HONESTY WITH MYSELF HAS HELPED ME MAINTAIN MY INTEGRITY" R.C.
Don't ask questions unless your prepared to hear the answers! How will I know if I ever lost it,if I never felt like I had it to begin﻿ with? My body & brain often have conflicts about who is in charge,when I try to change, it reminds me with pain,leaves me as separate entity's ,part very small the other always so large,you can try to ponder & wonder,a wishful thought or an educated guess, all the knowledge is great until the memory's gone & you piece together what's left of the mess, the conflict a perpetual spiral, do you stay on top & always keep your smile or lose to what's so exacting & vile.