Holding myself back??? LOL! What makes you think I'm waiting for anyone??? Wow, how vain you are!!! You being the wh!re that you are, I don't wait for anyone who drops they're pants at any given time, like you!Spirit he told me to tell u to move on.
You are only holding yourself back waiting on something that will never happen! He is happily married and is not going to leave his wife & kids for you or any other frog.
I believe you should move on; and I'm glad to hear that someone who 'abuses' an adult and children, turns you on that much!