The universe is proof neither of the existence of a god nor of the absence of one. Science neither proves nor disproves. There is an underlying order to the universe. How it got that way... who knows?
What you are speaking of there is but your personal philosophy... not anything based on reality.
And certainly you have not answered the question.
That big question that no one can answer, proves that a creator is in existence, after all what then brought the universe into form?