Now you accuse me of being dishonest when I readily admit that I cannot prove, on here, one way or the other. All in the same post you still make an assertion that is lacking any real evidence. So you actually enjoy lying, that's interesting. Not to mention your assertions, the ones that betray you enjoy lying, also insult many of the butch lesbians. Then you make the same fallacious assumption that I even care about sexuality, when I have clearly stated I am asexual many times. It seems you are projecting a lot, you have an insecurity about your femininity, so much that you have to assume not only that every female will be exactly what you wish you were, but that you can actually achieve that without the use of surgery or snake oil. I'd wager you've had a lot of surgery to that regard, and probably used a bunch of "beauty aides," yet such aides cannot mask the ugly that you see inside your own personality, so you continue to pile them on, and continue to project your own failings onto others. None are as complex as the truly insane, for your own insecurities are a mental instability of themselves.<quoted text>
So in other words, you want to play the game by lying and deceiving. And you wonder why you don't trust a God to begin with. You have to trust Yourself first and learn to face reality.
Do believe in magic? Here's a few things you might want to tinker with:
It will give you more grace and femininity in your movements and speaking
It will gradually diminish unwanted facial hair and make it less noticable
It will begin to make your body appear more supple and womanly
It will awaken your feminie aura
It will help you to exude your femininity, your eyes will sparkle and your skin will glow
It will make you feel more sexual and attractive
You should invest in a good psychologist, you'd make an excellent case study of how damaging low self esteem is to a human mind as well as also receive some help with your problem.