Many gay people share the same story. I too blame religion in general and Christianity in particular. Idiots like KiMare ask for examples of how Christ-insanity has harmed people and when KiMare reads stories like yours he just ignores them as askes for examples. Round and round he wants to take it, never getting anywhere and never wanting to get anywhere.<quoted text> That is the conclusion I arrived at. Prayed 50 years for gods help to be hetero. Lived many years in emotional pain to protect me and family. Scacrifices of staying lonly,denying myself a happier life. Then to read and hear people ssy its a choice is "salt on a deep wound". So many lost years because of religion to having a relationship heteros have. Can't get those years back. 58 and still alone because of religion. Seeing family-friends- neighbors-people publicly enjoying companiinship, hurts very much. Then to be preached to by non clergy on how I should be living. Then dare feign they know better than gays on it being a choice! None of my prayers ever answered. So I vome on here to give my testimonies on the farce called religion. Still I have respect to those that want to be religious. As long as its not forced on me to live by.
But telling your story of the harm you have suffered because of morons for Christ like our resident simple-minded KaMare can and does help others struggling with their sexuality.
Thank you for sharing your pain.