No it isn't, Dr. Wondering. It's just different... something you seem scared to death of, so you call it a disorder. No one could possibly have an innate attraction to others of the same sex, could they? It seems as though you suffer from a disorder called narcissism:<quoted text>
No problem, but for the 96% of the population that isn't gay, it's a disorder.
An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges
A lack of psychological awareness (see insight in psychology and psychiatry, egosyntonic)
Difficulty with empathy
Problems distinguishing the self from others (see narcissism and boundaries)
Hypersensitivity to any insults or imagined insults (see criticism and narcissists, narcissistic rage and narcissistic injury)
Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply)
Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse)
Using other people without considering the cost of doing so
Pretending to be more important than they really are
Bragging (subtly but persistently) and exaggerating their achievements
Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people
Hmmmm..... that last one is you.