Where ever you go I wish you well, but in case others read this - the reason I knew it was God that woke me up that night was well becouse He has a way of letting you know it is Him.<quoted text>
You have no idea what woke you up. You concluded it was 'god' because you couldn't think of any other reason. This is called the argument from ignorance (if you can't think of another explanation, god did it). It is a common logical fallacy.
YOu wanted to read the bible because you are in a mostly christian country. Had this happened in the middle east you would have wanted the koran. Obviously you were searching for something missing in your life if you suddenly wanted to find religion.
Consciously or subconsciously?
Circular reasoning. Begging the question. You assume the bible is the word of 'god' and that god must exist because the bible says so. Do you understand how insane this sort of thinking is?
Not at all. There could be a god that has limited powers and that made the universe by accident. There could be a god that has huge powers and no control over them. There could be what you call a god that is not conscious but causes things by its nature. Just a few of many possibilities.
Final post; got to go.
I was "in my mind " speaking to Him very clearly. I was not calling on the name of Jesus, but God sees our heart, and overlooks our proper terms. People don't do either.
I can't tell you what would've happened had I been in iraq, or north korea, and can only tell you what happened to me.