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Squirrel

Providence, RI

#66 May 14, 2008
If you are really considering hurting yourself, please call a suicide prevention hotline. For example:

1-800-273-TALK (8255)
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

It's completely confidential.
DEATH

United States

#67 Jun 19, 2008
I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF ALL THE TIME IM NEVER HAPPEN EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY IS ALWAYS PUTTING ME DOWN NEVER ENCOURAGE ME OR ANYTHING THEY ALWAYS TELL ME IM GOING TO ME A WHO%% AND THAT IM GOING TO BECOME PREG. AT A YOUNG AGE I REALLY WANT SOMETHING OUT OF LIFE I WANT TO BE SUCESSFUL BUT ITS VERY DIFFICULT TO TRY AND SUCCEED WITH EVERYONE SAYING AND GIVING NEGATIVE VIBES IM ONLY 15 AND I HAVE BIG DREAMS I WANT TO DANCE AND MODEL I WANT GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL AND GO TO ONE OF THE BEST COLLEGES BUT NO ONE BELIVES IN ME I TRIED TO BE LIKE FORGET THEM IM NOT GOING TO WORRY BUT ITS SOOOO HARD EVEN WHEN MY DAD IS ON DRUGS AND I LIVE WITH MY GRANDMOTHER SHE JUST TAKES CARE OF ME TO GET THE MONEY THAT I GET ITS NOT EVEN ABOUT THAT SHE IS SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME FOR ME I DONT GET TO SEE MY MOM THAT OFTEN MY GRANDMOTHER TELLS ME NO ALL THE TIME I DO EVERYTHING IM SUPPOSE TO DO EVEN EXTRA AND I STILL GET TREATED UNFAIR I LIVE IN A HOME WITH 3 OTHER KIDS 2 WITH PROBLEMS SO THEY MORE ATTENTION I UNDERSTAND BUT IM ONY NOTICE FOR NOTHING THE ONLY THING I DO IS CLEAN THE HOUSE AND STAY IN MY ROOM I HAVE TO GET AWAY I HAVE NO ONE TO TRUST I HAD I BOYFRIEND AND THOUGHT I COULD TRUST HIM BUT FOR SOMEONE RESON LIKE EVERYONE ELSE HE GAVE UP ON ME I FEEL USE I HAVE BEGIN TO THINK I HAVE NO PURPOSE ON EARTH OTHER THAN TO GET TREATED LIKE A PIECE OF CRAP CAN SOMEONE HELP ME

Since: Mar 08

Mechanicsburg, PA

#68 Jun 20, 2008
Donna wrote:
I just came upon this thread. I thought about sucide many times as a girl. One time I tried, I had a knife in my hand and my brother tried to get it fromme and I almost cut his finger off.
I finally came to realize that ono one could MAKE me happy, but others could HELP me be happy.
There were two things that really helped me. If I may I would like to share them.
1. I started working at a food pantry. The people there were just as bad off or worse off thn I was. It was to feel needed. After working there for a while the regulars started watching for me to come and would ask about me if I wasn't there. It's a good feeling when people worry about you when you don't come around.
2. I started working at an animal shelter. Animals have such big hearts and they will love you no matter what you do. They also have a 6th sense to know when you feel down. On days that I really felt bad I would try to work with an animal one on one, I could cry and share my secrets with a dog and never worry that I sounded stupid or that my secrets would be talked about when I left.
I don't know if my suggestions will work for any of you but maybe if you try one of them it might help.
Peace to you all
Animals are awesome. Not sure I'd be here typing this if it wasn't for my guys and gals at home- three cats, one dog. 100% unconditional love 24/7/365. I live alone and loneliness is an issue, so the pets do help in that department. As stupid as it may sound, that animal may give someone a reason to go on...

Since: Mar 08

Mechanicsburg, PA

#69 Jun 20, 2008
Dark Night of the Soul wrote:
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Glad that worked for you.
BTW, have you ever been victim of deep clinical depression? Most who have been there will tell you it's not as easy as you seem to think.
Yeah it's hard to "learn" how to "enjoy life" when one has reached a point of absolutely no motivation, devoid of all feeling.

I agree clinical depression is an illness and should be treated by a doctor. The recovery is more akin to spring coming slowly after a long winter than any sudden change in spirit.
this is me

Columbus, GA

#70 Jul 31, 2008
no one understands why i cant tell my parents about this. ITS SO OBVIOUS!!!
if they found out they'd probably put me in a psycho center, and i'd be treated like a FREAK!!!!!!
Willy

Coacalco De Berriozábal, Mexico

#72 Mar 21, 2011
Lately I've been feeling really depressed, it's been really tough for me and the stupid decisions I've made.

I can't find a decent job even when I graduated from college, I had to take a very low paying job that I hate, the only girlfriend I've had dumped me and I haven't had much luck in the dating scene but sometimes I think it's for the better since I don't want to drag someone else to my world of trouble, I'm broke, I'm about to lose my home, I have no family and not many friends.

I spent most of the time laid in bed, with not much hope and it's getting harder to even sleep. There are days when I feel like I'm living just to live, that I'm just a waste of space and air. I've been getting suicide thoughts more often every day.

It's just hard, too damn hard. I'm looking for someone that feels like this to talk and to give me the strength to get through this.
Wrong_Turn

Edmonton, Canada

#73 Apr 1, 2011
Death wrote:
I'm sick & tired of hurting. Life SUCKS!
I feel your pain
Wrong_Turn

Edmonton, Canada

#74 Apr 1, 2011
MCR addict wrote:
i just started to cry today. for no reason. alot has been goin on in my life and i just feel like i'm all alone. we're all gonna die sometime... so would it be so bad to just end your life now?
I started today too feel really anxious and my medication just made me cry for hours for no reason although it's tough you have to hang in there.
soon2bdead

Atlantic City, NJ

#75 Apr 5, 2011
I bought a tank of 400ppm carbon monoxide. Over the next day or so my plan is to take some dramame , a few ambient sleeping pills, and some dilaudid. Then I am going to put on the mask turn on the tank and say goodnight. I am so excited to do this. It is a hi just to think about it. Planned it now for months. Suit,, shirt shoes and sox will be in my closet for when they put my daed butt in the coffin. No one will be there. Any looking to check out should be allowed. Read the book if you can get it "Final Exit". Its been banned but copies are out there.
spooky

Paducah, KY

#76 Apr 10, 2011
My son has no one on the earth but me. i feel sometimes like he would be better off without me. i have struggled with depression my whole life. i got a list full of probs that would make anyone unhappy or so i hear but lately i feel like i need a reason to not just check out. i dont pray. ive never experienced God and i feel like i have bipolar disorder or multiple personality disorder idk. i dont want to diagnose myself but im pretty smart and if no one else see this in me, they are blind and dumb.
JfZ

Lafayette, LA

#77 Apr 24, 2011
It's Easter Sunday. We have guests over. I'm not sure bc I can't go downstairs to see. I'm as usual hiding from the world in my bedroom. I used to constantly dream about where I'd rather be. The beach. The mountains. Sightseeing in a foreign country. Now I realize these things will never happen. I just want to be gone. To die and not have to be plagued by thoughts of self-hate self disgust and loneliness. I'm tired. I feel sick all the time. I cry all the time. My body aches all the time. I have no friends who call to chat. I have to children. My son hates me. My daughter loves me but she's young still and doesn't know yet that I will always be this way. I just want to leave already but I'm afraid my kids will be too hurt and my family will be stuck with my debt. I keep thinking that I should wait to commit suicide when my youngest child turns eighteen and doesn't need me anymore. But this would mean I'd need to wait another five and half yrs. I cannot wait that long.
dust

Pune, India

#79 May 20, 2011
i hv put the same matter in other thread too....
its human to feel or think that everyone else is more happier than our ownself, grass is always greener on the other side. but reality is different friends. i am no one to judge anyone on this forum nor recommend remedies but can say only thru experience and thru little that i hv learned in this life. firstly it is necessary to understand that humanbirth is achieved only after our n number of rebirths in which we would have been anything else but human, so firstly we have to appreciate and thank the lord for giving us the human birth and above all thank him for whatever we have. as we take a shower or eat food or go to gym or outings for the body or the mind it is necessary to understand that ever innerself that is our soul needs this too. and this is done in a very simple way by just sharing some quiet moments in a corner prefarably at the same time same place and it will be great if u start with the day before u get up buy sitting in silence and talk to the lord. believe me no one is closer to u than him , oceans may dry sun may dissappear but he will always be there but for that u have to have faith in him that whatever is happening is for my good.automatically the qs arises to everyone is how can my downfall be right for me, well this is a cycle of karmas in your last birth u have done something wrong to that person or someone and hence ur paying for it, as simple as it sounds. and then we find the easy way out suicide, sorry to use the following words but only cowards do that as we think we r released of the pain, but the reality is different, in the cosmic world u will be in more pain than ever, and once u realise this that temporary pain will be better than more in the future it will be easy... frankly this is a rather long subject to convince or share experiences. in short let me put it that without faith we r nothing, try god, we have tried friends, families, well wishers but once u try god there will be miracles happening in ur lifes, i wish i cud share few but i wonder how many will be interested to know.....
and last but not the least when we go to sleep if only we think of the things we shud have done and not done u will automatically realise where our mistakes are.... forgive me if i hurt anyones sentiments or feelings but my point was just to see if i cud even make one person happy i will think i have done by writing on this thread for the very first time ... i call him as my friend and talk to him when i am alone u first will think its being rathere crazy but once the tears of joy fall and u realise that he exists and great souls can see them not a ' no - one ' like me, but i experience him with the miracles he does in my life and in my surroundings.. ofcourse there r days when i am out of focus but as they say show me ur friends i will tell u who u r, so beware of the ppl u be with, its not what ppl think about u but if this ppl help u grow in what u want but not who pull u down, its difficult to find spiritual ppl around but there r many who give u good vibrations and u know they make u feel good and u will surely be able to change things around u... it will be like nothing is going to change around actually but after ur awareness god will be like a chloroform used in operation as u will go thru ur problem but u will not feel the pain as u cannot change ur karmas but surely face them with his help... i think i wrote too much... thx
Shytinka

Sandy, OR

#80 Oct 7, 2012
I am dealing with a really hard situation right now and I just need to vent. I keep finding myself wanting to just end my life. I keep finding myself thinking of many different ways to end it. I think to myself that no one will miss me. my whole family is so mad at me and hates me right now that known of them will no I am gone. It will make there life so much easier. Known of them will have to hear my name again or see my face again. I wont have to feel the pain anymore.
I keep trying to convience my self that this is not true but its so hard. My bad thoughts are stronger then the rest of me. I have thought about taking all my pain killers I have, i have also thought about just slitting my wrist.. But its not easy. help Plz
Kelly

New York, NY

#81 Oct 12, 2012
A place to express oneself is important for those who are feeling down and out. Most of the time, those who are suicidal are people who feel that they are alone and nobody listens to them. That is why suicide hotlines are available. Others who have been using Zoloft at a young age were also linked to increased suicide. This site http://www.zoloftsertralinebirthdefects.com offers information about it.
Marine18

Justin, TX

#82 Dec 12, 2012
I want to kill myself most days i Did 2 tours in Afghanistan and saw and do many things there my family disowned me for becoming a marine I live alone now and have no family to turn my girlfriend left me so that my daughter Addison wouldn't grow up with a dad who gone all the time
cantgetup

United States

#84 Apr 23, 2013
I lost my mother the begining of 2011 and my dad just under a year later my whole world was crushed it still is my daddy was my everything he was my dad my best friend my right hand man and all of a sudden he was gone no warning no nothing just gone. i quit eating i quit sleeping i just drank and sulked. everyday i think of different ways to get rid of myself because i find no reason for life anymore. i try to talk to people it just doesnt seem like they care that their friend is going downhill and fast. ive tried greive couselours talking with other people who've gone through the samr thing. i think if i dont heal or cope soon i wont be in this world anymore.
Osvaldo

UK

#87 Sep 26, 2013
I have ordered 2 times from this website PILLSMEDSHOP. COM . I called yesterday the customer care and asked for a discount as i was about to order twice the regular amount.

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