I hate everything about my life, or t...

I hate everything about my life, or the lack of it

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Suzy

Singapore, Singapore

#1 Feb 22, 2007
I have realised im severly depressed.
I have no interest in things i used to love before
I have a bf who doesnt like me doing alot of things
In turn i have lost all my friends, and that was my way of enjoying life. With other pple.
My bf is a pilot and i strive to become a stewardess, but he doesnt approve. So that dream is gone.
Everytime he cmes home, i feel the pain, as thou someone has rubbed salt into my already open wound.
I have no one to talk to.
I hate being home with my family cuz there are other issues with them that i dread cmg home to.
I cant seem to find anything that i can do while hes gone or even while hes here ( cuz he doesnt like gng out, he hates crowds, therefore he shys away from society)
Im struggling to finish studying which i truly find a massive chore. Its adding to my depression ( i do not get bad grades per say but i hate the process) and im extremely impatient to find something for myself for my future. I dont know what i want ot become and im already 23. Everyone is moving ahead of me so fast and i cant catch up. I cant find anything that can give me the satisfaction that the stewardess job can give me. I feel like this is it for me, that ill become a house wife and have nothign for myself ( im not saying being a house wife is degrading, not at all, but thats jsut not what i want for myself)
pls help... someone just talk to me.. i need to talk to someone who somehow understands...
Zoompad

Reading, UK

#2 Feb 22, 2007
Suzy wrote:
I have realised im severly depressed.
I have no interest in things i used to love before
I have a bf who doesnt like me doing alot of things
In turn i have lost all my friends, and that was my way of enjoying life. With other pple.
My bf is a pilot and i strive to become a stewardess, but he doesnt approve. So that dream is gone.
Everytime he cmes home, i feel the pain, as thou someone has rubbed salt into my already open wound.
I have no one to talk to.
I hate being home with my family cuz there are other issues with them that i dread cmg home to.
I cant seem to find anything that i can do while hes gone or even while hes here ( cuz he doesnt like gng out, he hates crowds, therefore he shys away from society)
Im struggling to finish studying which i truly find a massive chore. Its adding to my depression ( i do not get bad grades per say but i hate the process) and im extremely impatient to find something for myself for my future. I dont know what i want ot become and im already 23. Everyone is moving ahead of me so fast and i cant catch up. I cant find anything that can give me the satisfaction that the stewardess job can give me. I feel like this is it for me, that ill become a house wife and have nothign for myself ( im not saying being a house wife is degrading, not at all, but thats jsut not what i want for myself)
pls help... someone just talk to me.. i need to talk to someone who somehow understands...
Suzy,

I have felt like you do, and come through the other end. Perhaps it might help to talk to someone who has been there too, and is out of it now?

I think your boyfriend is being unreasonable. It sounds as if he is trying to control you. You should decide for yourself what career you want to pursue, just as he has. If you want to be a stewardess, you should follow your dream.

23 is still very young. I am over twice your age, and I spent over 30 sad years in depression. It seems like such a waste of life now. I wish I knew then what I know now! I was depressed because I was being bullied. First, I was a child abuse victim, then I got sucked into a bullying religious cult, and then I had a series of bullying relationships. I didn;t realise that I was being manipulated and bullied, so I had no idea how to fight back.

I am currently being taken to court by the last of the bullies, a man who raped me. Incredivble, but true! I was suicidal, but now I am just plain livid! I am determined that I will never again be bullied, ever again. I am going to protest on Mothers day outside the Prime Ministers house. I have written a book and had it published. I had no idea that I would ever do anything like this! I thought that my life was over!

Your life is just begun. You are so young, you have wonderful things in store for you. Do not, on any account, allow anyone to bully and manipulate you, and steal your dreams, please don't, because manipulative people will snatch away your dreams and throw you to othe scrap heap when you are an empty shell.

A healthy relationship is one built on mutual love and trust, not one person owning and manipulating the other. You need to talk with this man, to work out if you are right for each other. He might not mean to manipulate you, and be willing to change. You won't know unless you talk to him about it. Good luck!
Suzy

Singapore, Singapore

#3 Feb 23, 2007
Im so sorry to hear about what u had to endure. BUt its also good to know that there is still hope out there. That somehow we'll make it thru. IM glad for ur accomplishments and hopefully the justice implemented on the others who abused u.

I do hope i get thru this quick cuz its really sad to stay in this terrible 'bubble'

I feel alot better.. thank u. BUt i do relaise i have to find someone whos been thru this to talk to. Not easy to find when i have so many constaints. But i will keep trying. Thanks so much.

Zoompad

Reading, UK

#4 Feb 25, 2007
Suzy wrote:
Im so sorry to hear about what u had to endure. BUt its also good to know that there is still hope out there. That somehow we'll make it thru. IM glad for ur accomplishments and hopefully the justice implemented on the others who abused u.
I do hope i get thru this quick cuz its really sad to stay in this terrible 'bubble'
I feel alot better.. thank u. BUt i do relaise i have to find someone whos been thru this to talk to. Not easy to find when i have so many constaints. But i will keep trying. Thanks so much.
You will get through. There's a lot of depression right now in the UK. A lot of it is because of the terrible government we have, I'm convinced of it.
Zoompad

Reading, UK

#5 Feb 26, 2007
Suzy wrote:
Im so sorry to hear about what u had to endure. BUt its also good to know that there is still hope out there. That somehow we'll make it thru. IM glad for ur accomplishments and hopefully the justice implemented on the others who abused u.
I do hope i get thru this quick cuz its really sad to stay in this terrible 'bubble'
I feel alot better.. thank u. BUt i do relaise i have to find someone whos been thru this to talk to. Not easy to find when i have so many constaints. But i will keep trying. Thanks so much.
I'm fighting a legal battle at the moment, against a paedophile. I have had to dig to find information that is being used against women, to shut their mouths about sexual abuse. It's appalling what I have found out. It concerns Muchausens By Proxy Disorder, Parental Alienation Disorder and False Memory Syndrome. These terma have been invented by eminent psychologists, and are being used in courtrooms in England and America. I am trying to make people aware that at least two of these psychologists, Richard A Gardner and Ralph Underwager are self confessed paedophiles, therefore their research is of dubious value.

This is why I have got stronger from depression. I have realised that the depression is not my fault - it is a symptom that something is seriously wrong in our seciety. But don't take my word for this - take a look at this other piece of writing by this well respected man. Our society is tru;ly sick. No-one here should feel bad about themselves any more - we are the victims of a sick society. Stop blaming and punishing yourselves, good people. http://www.argate.net/~liz/liz/lit.htm
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