Posted in the Depression Forum
Saint Petersburg, FL
#1 Oct 8, 2012
I am the daughter of a preacher, I am a straight A-B student in my first year of college. I volunteer at our church, and I have volunteered with special needs kids. I was in National Honor Society both 11th and 12th grade. I don't really ask my parents for much because I don't feel like I deserve anything. I am silent and submissive and I don't talk back.
How can I? I've thought he was going to hurt me at least twice before. I KNOW he cares for my other siblings more than he does me. Because neither of them backed in a corner in fear of having their skull bashed in and their brains splattered on the wall. So I remain silent when he screams at me (I meant scream, not yell or shout) as all good daughters should. He does scream at my siblings, too. But they somehow have the courage to speak up for themselves. I can't. My voice has been taken from me by my own father. I'm nothing. Not even worth his time.
But my own silence is killing me.
HOW can I EVER talk to my dad when all he ever is is condescending and judgmental towards the people I care about and treats me with disdain when I say I feel like they are worth my effort to love because God first loved me? He doesn't know that I used to self injure and still struggle with it from time to time. 9/10 he's the reason I start in the first place. He doesn't have a clue that I dream of losing weight like it's going out of style.
I feel brainwashed. I'm crying right now because everyone tells me how lucky I am these days to have a father in my family, but that's all he is. He's "dad", not "daddy". I'm... I'm not his princess. I'm just a product of conception. I feel like I lost some important relationships because of lies he's always fed at me. The Bible talks about being quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry.
He must've missed that sermon.
#3 Sep 26, 2013
I have ordered 2 times from this website PILLSMEDSHOP. COM . I called yesterday the customer care and asked for a discount as i was about to order twice the regular amount.
#4 Jan 30, 2014
I've been on Effexor from http://goo.gl/kHgRdx only one week but am cautiously very optimistic. Prior to this I was on citalopram but still feeling very low and sleeping poorly, feeling like I needed to be in bed 12-16 hours a day. Now I am waking naturally after only 8 hours sleep and finding it much easier to concentrate at work. I can hardly believe it is working so quickly but I feel so much better. I've had no side effects.
Add your comments below
|Viagra May Help Women (Jul '08)||Tue||pillenapotheke||11|
|Facts about bipolar disorder||May 23||MaryWh||2|
|Few kids receiving mental health care - Zeni (Jul '08)||May 17||many went 2 Acton||11|
|botcho cream for buttocks/hip enlargment (Sep '12)||May 17||sista||18|
|Antidepressants not as effective as previously ...||May 16||HumanSpirit||1|
|Depressed? It could be adult ADHD||May 16||HumanSpirit||1|
|Study reveals why some depressed patients have ...||May 14||space ace||2|
Find what you want!
Search Depression Forum Now
Copyright © 2016 Topix LLC