What's really bothering me?

What's really bothering me?

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RDL

Victoria, Canada

#1 Oct 29, 2013
What's really bothering me?
What's the real source of my anger/fear/sadness/boredom?
My Asperger's Syndrome/High Functioning Autism.
I'll never have a spouse, children, a pet, a house, a car, or a full-time job.
I'm chronically unemployed, and I'm chronically single.
I'm dependent on disability, and even then, it doesn't go far enough, so I'm dependent on my trust fund.
My trust fund is dwindling, so I might have to move back in with my parents permanently in a couple of years if my job search situation doesn't improve.
I'm dependent on Alcoholics Anonymous for my social life, even though I was merely a problem drinker and never a full-blown alcoholic.
I'm dependent on the internet for my social life too, even though I have to go to the internet cafe for that, and it's expensive, so I can only go there one hour a day, one or two days a week.
I don't have the money for a laptop/tablet/smartphone to be able to access the many Wi-Fi hotspots in my city.
I'm not allowed to have the internet at home, at my local college, or at my local public library because of things that happened as a result of my condition.
I can't have a relationship with a woman since I'm 100% gay.(I dated a woman a few years ago, but she only bought that I was straight because she had a disability that was lower functioning than me.)
I can't have a relationship with a man since he's going to want anal sex, and I'm uncomfortable with that.(In the summer of 2013, I had oral sex with my then-boyfriend, but I denied him anal sex, and a month later he punched me.)
I am 100% powerless over my autism/Asperger's, and my life is unmanageable.
I will live on my own and go to AA and go to the internet cafe as long as I can, before my life completely falls apart.
Ignore friend

Winnipeg, Canada

#3 Nov 5, 2013
Thank the pediatrician that did this to you with vaccines.

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