Deja-Vu, Flashbacks, and Anxiety. Help!

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achilles555

Mission, KS

#1 Feb 3, 2008
Hello all. I've had an interesting past few days, and wanted to share just to see if anyone has been through anything like this. I have lived with Anxiety in one way or another for over a decade. I am a 33 year-old male and take 40mg of Paxil / day. You'd think I would have the hang of this anxiety thing down by now...but something is always catching me off-guard it seems. The latest is this: It began on Thursday night. I started having this "feeling" of Deja Vu several times throughout the evening. I didn't think anything about it much at the time...because we've all had Deja-Vu at some time in our lives. But then, all day Friday I felt the same way. Then Friday afternoon, and into the evening, It switched from the feeling of Deja-Vu to something else. Like dreams, or movies, or video games that I have played (I coudn't quite put my finger on what it was)- started to flash into my mind. Almost like my subconscious had a "glitch". Well, I start worrying about it (did you expect anything else)- and I began my Google search. I swear, Google is the bane of my existence. I have scared myself into a panic attack with internet stories more times than I would like to remember. Well, the first thing that popped-up was a forum post explaining that Deja-Vu can be the first signs of Schizophrenia. HERE WE GO! Every time I have anxiety, I think I am losing my mind, and that it will develop into Schizophrenia. I did a lot more searching, and found this NOT to be the case, but that's how I feel. Now, I just have a dull anxious feeling, and am dreading going back to work for fear of my own thoughts, or that the Deja-Vu feeling will come back, or flashes of dreams will come back. Has anyone out there experienced anything like this before? Should I be worried about this Scizophrenia thing? I did do LSD once in my childhood (when I was 18). Could that be coming back to haunt me - referring to the "flashback" thing. Also, has anyone else noticed that their anxiety comes in cycles. For example, I will be fine and dandy for months, and then BAM - I'll have a spell for a week or four - and then I''ll work through it and get better. One of these days, I'm afraid it will come and not go away. Any words of encouragement or similar experiences would be much appreciated. Thanks so much, Achilles.
Michael

Makati, Philippines

#2 Feb 5, 2008
Friend, you'll get through it. I know you can, because I'm going through the same thing, only difference between us is I've only had mine for barely a year.

Anyway, this is just an act of trying to help out, on google type in Eckhart Tolle forums on the search field and register then read stuff there (if you don't know it already, Mr. Tolle also used to have anxiety and depression but was able to break through them by meditation -- his work popularly known as the Power of Now... I wanna be able to do the same and I think so are all other people with anxiety attacks).
Shari

AOL

#3 Jul 10, 2008
I have had the same thing. You feel like you've been before and/or it is part of a dream, you try to grasp it, but you can't. It's scary, but all part of this wonderful anxiety thing we have. I have been helped with medication and therapy, but sometimes it comes back with a vengence.
AshesAgainst

Irwin, PA

#4 Nov 1, 2008
Achilles, I just want to thank you for taking the time to write this whole thing out. I'm 17 myself and feel the same as you do; my anxiety started almost a year ago. I had gotten waayyy too damn high one night and it carried over to the next day and I had to deal with my parents all day (oh dear god dont get me started on the thoughts of dissapointing them, getting in trouble, etc) and later that night I had a severe panic attack (I had no clue what it was at the time, so Im sure you can guess my natural reaction [Im going insane]). This brought about lasting anxiety and a nasty bought of depersonalization/derealizatio n and I've been living with it on and off since. I've only had one or two major attacks since then, but last night was another one. Two nights ago I was out filming a movie when all of the sudden my body started to feel very weird, like the sensitivity of my skin dropped way down and I felt like I was clipping/melting through things. At first I attributed it to an LSD flashback (I too did it once) because that was the feeling that I had while I was on it. It went away after a few hours but of course, my mind started racing.'Maybe it wasnt a flashback' was the predominant self-check question that was the root of all evil. Well I was fine the day afterwards, but just last night the feeling came back again around 4am. I accepted it as normal until I started questioning myself again, which led to an intense panic attack (which seem so silly when you can tell yourself you're having a panic attack yet it doesnt shake you out of it). Its about 24 hours later, and the feeling still persists, although for a while it did start to fade (when I managed to calm down and stop worrying), but the anxiety started to rise again and it rose back to full force. Now in retrospect, I realize this feeling is actually an anxiety mechanic. How do I know this? Let me explain.
I felt this way when I tried LSD. About 75% of the time I was on it, I thought I was going insane and pretty much had a bad trip because of anxiety. I always attributed the feeling to the drug, but I guess in retrospect it was born out of anxiety.(If you have anxiety, do not fucking try LSD)
Point 2:
I had gotten high for the first time in a long time a while ago. It was all going well until a certain 'A' word started to manifest itself again. I had the same bad trip panic attack feeling (on weed.. wtf) but I mildly contained it and told myself it was just the bad trip coming back to haunt me.(I now know it wasnt really a bad trip as much as it was a panic attack) Later on we were in the car heading to a Pink Floyd laser show and I started getting that weird body feeling again. Coincidence that this feeling has manifested 3/3 when I've had bad anxiety? I think not.
AshesAgainst

Irwin, PA

#5 Nov 1, 2008
How did I have anxiety the most recent time though, when I was seemingly fine, filming my movie? Because I'm a senior in highschool, and the thought of college and everything about it (moving out, being on my own, new people, friends moving away) terrified me and has been on my mind a hell of alot, same with just thinking back about my past drug use alot. The anxiety foundation has been laid.
Now that I've put all these puzzle pieces together, it all makes sense, and it feels like a huge burden has been lifted from within me. Now Im just waiting for this body feeling to go away and I should be fine, because I just dealt with a LOT of demons and anxiety triggers.
But anyway, thanks alot Achilles, you're not alone (I've been having a LOT of Dejavu lately, and not 2 second flashes; a whole intricate scene seems to be pre-experienced)
The thinking that one day it might not go away is another root cause of your anxiety, if you havn't figured it out by now. That thought is doing far more damage then LSD or anything else at this point. Seriously man, I dealt with that way too much. I thought that the LSD/Salvia/What have you fucked me up permanently. Know that doing it once will NOT rewire your brain and by even thinking that you're causing yourself to freak out. I'm glad you posted this though, because it really me out and I feel much better now. I hope you do too.
Anxiety is a fucking bitch.
AshesAgainst

Irwin, PA

#6 Nov 1, 2008
Achilles, I just want to thank you for taking the time to write this whole thing out. I'm 17 myself and feel the same as you do; my anxiety started almost a year ago. I had gotten waayyy too damn high one night and it carried over to the next day and I had to deal with my parents all day (oh dear god dont get me started on the thoughts of dissapointing them, getting in trouble, etc) and later that night I had a severe panic attack (I had no clue what it was at the time, so Im sure you can guess my natural reaction [Im going insane]). This brought about lasting anxiety and a nasty bought of depersonalization/derealizatio n and I've been living with it on and off since. I've only had one or two major attacks since then, but last night was another one. Two nights ago I was out filming a movie when all of the sudden my body started to feel very weird, like the sensitivity of my skin dropped way down and I felt like I was clipping/melting through things. At first I attributed it to an LSD flashback (I too did it once) because that was the feeling that I had while I was on it. It went away after a few hours but of course, my mind started racing.'Maybe it wasnt a flashback' was the predominant self-check question that was the root of all evil. Well I was fine the day afterwards, but just last night the feeling came back again around 4am. I accepted it as normal until I started questioning myself again, which led to an intense panic attack (which seem so silly when you can tell yourself you're having a panic attack yet it doesnt shake you out of it). Its about 24 hours later, and the feeling still persists, although for a while it did start to fade (when I managed to calm down and stop worrying), but the anxiety started to rise again and it rose back to full force. Now in retrospect, I realize this feeling is actually an anxiety mechanic. How do I know this? Let me explain.
I felt this way when I tried LSD. About 75% of the time I was on it, I thought I was going insane and pretty much had a bad trip because of anxiety. I always attributed the feeling to the drug, but I guess in retrospect it was born out of anxiety.(If you have anxiety, do not fucking try LSD)
Point 2:
I had gotten high for the first time in a long time a while ago. It was all going well until a certain 'A' word started to manifest itself again. I had the same bad trip panic attack feeling (on weed.. wtf) but I mildly contained it and told myself it was just the bad trip coming back to haunt me.(I now know it wasnt really a bad trip as much as it was a panic attack) Later on we were in the car heading to a Pink Floyd laser show and I started getting that weird body feeling again. Coincidence that this feeling has manifested 3/3 when I've had bad anxiety? I think not.
How did I have anxiety the most recent time though, when I was seemingly fine, filming my movie? Because I'm a senior in highschool, and the thought of college and everything about it (moving out, being on my own, new people, friends moving away) terrified me and has been on my mind a hell of alot, same with just thinking back about my past drug use alot. The anxiety foundation has been laid.
Now that I've put all these puzzle pieces together, it all makes sense, and it feels like a huge burden has been lifted from within me. Now Im just waiting for this body feeling to go away and I should be fine, because I just dealt with a LOT of demons and anxiety triggers.
But anyway, thanks alot Achilles, you're not alone (I've been having a LOT of Dejavu lately, and not 2 second flashes; a whole intricate scene seems to be pre-experienced)
The thinking that one day it might not go away is another root cause of your anxiety, if you havn't figured it out by now. That thought is doing far more damage then LSD or anything else at this point.
Krissie_11

Port Melbourne, Australia

#7 Nov 20, 2008
Hi all,
I've never blogged before, but felt the need to after finding people who have shared the same experiences as me. I've suffered from anxiety on and off for the past 6-7 years and have come to terms with the fact that it's going to be something that I struggle with for most of my life in some sense or another. I first experienced these deja vu episodes around 6 years ago when I started having anxiety issues. At the time I had no idea what it was, and I too thought I was going crazy! I went through heaps of tests with doctors and they gave me a clean bill of health. I tried naturopathy and cut out smoking, drinking, caffeine, recreational drugs (I wasn't that frequent a user but didn't want to risk anything!). I found these episodes to be quite debilitating as they became so intense. When they would finish I would have a thumping headache and feel so tired I would want to curl up in a ball and sleep the day away. In time they stopped and I went back to leading a normal life without ever knowing what it was. It wasn't until a few years later I started having actual panic attacks. I had the same feeling of thinking I was going crazy, and even thinking I was going to die when they got so bad. I'm sure you all know that feeling. And then it develops into the fear of waiting for it to happen again. I ended up taking Aropax for near on two years, and to be honest it was probably the best thing I ever did as it gave me back a quality to life. My dose wasn't so high that I experienced that 'numb' feeling that people talk of. I've been off them for about 6 months now and have exprienced a couple of mild panic attacks, which I've tried to manage. It's just been over the last couple of weeks that I have started to have this deja vu thing again. It happened this morning on my way to work and I started to panic about it again - hence the reason why I'm on here now. It's reassuring to know that other people have experienced the same thing - and to be able to link it with an anxiety disorder, and to know I'm not the only one and not totally weird! Thanks Michael for the tip on meditation, I've been looking into it and am definitely going to give it a go now.
lov2sing

Brentwood, TN

#8 May 9, 2009
"switched from the feeling of Deja-Vu to something else. Like dreams, or movies, or video games that I have played "
Yes you are the closest to having a description of what happens to me. I am in my early 40s and have suffered with severe anxiety since I was 13. I thought when it came to panic I had experienced it all. Then 2 years ago..while feeling really stressed. I had this like deja vu thing..It was like I was in the situation I was in and I knew how it would play out...Then I caught myself thinking weird and it went away. I tossed it up to anxiety again...but then it got worse and worse. It happens a lot when I am in the car. OK you know that if you follow a school bus and go over a rr crossing it will stop and open it's door. It is like I get that feeling that I know what is going to happen next like we all do with a school bus...but of course I don't as soon as I realize that I am thinking weird I can snap out of it..but it leaves me drained and confused...what is this...I can't even explain it to a doctor. HELP!?!?!?!?
im only 13 i don wan this

Bethesda, MD

#9 May 14, 2009
every one if you read this and you know a treatment for this i will reward you greatly and forever owe you my email is www.pimpdady@hotmail.com
wind and fire

Aurora, IL

#10 Jul 7, 2009
I have also had a similar experience as described. Last night I had an LSD flashback and I have spent all today trying to figure out what caused it as it has came from a trip I took over a year ago, although I have tripped other times since then I knew it from this certain experience. I have a severe anxiety disorder and take 40 mg of Paxil a day as well. I had taken MDMA just 2 days ago and experienced this flashback just last night. I realized by reading into everything that the flashback occurred from my anxiety. I was in a state of great fear, anxiety and uncomfort before going to bed, and as usual for seemingly silly reasons.

I woke up in the middle of the night and experienced the flashback that was combined with a black out upon standing too quickly that was so intense I could barely see and move until it faded somewhat and became for several minutes like I was fully tripping. I forced myself took look into the mirror and became even more awake of my state of mind. I became so scared and panic stricken I renounced all further drug use in the midst of it.

Now however I feel like abandoning everything is letting the anxiety win. I feel like maybe I need to continue to truly conquer my anxiety and look at from within myself while on LSD. I want to get to a point where I can do anything and not have to worry about the anxiety that comes with it. Maybe this is all a process of working through it?
trigger1

Birmingham, UK

#11 Jul 16, 2009
Hi, to all you fellow sufferers out there. Have just had another episode of De Ja vu and panic attacks which have left me feeling slightly removed from the present day and with a strange fear of the unknown... like the first day of school or starting a new job.

I have had these attacks for about five years now and I get them about twice a year. I am 43, noraml and consider myself to be fairly confident but when this occurs it leaves me feeling alone, frightened and mystified.

The attack starts with an overwhelming sense of De Ja Vu as if I am reliving a dream, this is followed by feelings of panic, nausea and anxiety.

The next day I am left feeling "STRANGE" almost drugged and extremely tired.

I am convinced that periods of anxiety and or stress are the cause of these weird sensations but would be extremely relieved if it was never to happen again.

Please tell me if anyone has had these attacks and has managed to find a cure or at least a method of how to contol it.

When it happens I just feel so alone and frightened, detached from the rest of society.

It's good to know i'm not alone!
AusieGirl

Sydney, Australia

#13 Jul 18, 2009
trigger1 wrote:
Hi, to all you fellow sufferers out there. Have just had another episode of De Ja vu and panic attacks which have left me feeling slightly removed from the present day and with a strange fear of the unknown... like the first day of school or starting a new job.
I have had these attacks for about five years now and I get them about twice a year. I am 43, noraml and consider myself to be fairly confident but when this occurs it leaves me feeling alone, frightened and mystified.
The attack starts with an overwhelming sense of De Ja Vu as if I am reliving a dream, this is followed by feelings of panic, nausea and anxiety.
The next day I am left feeling "STRANGE" almost drugged and extremely tired.
I am convinced that periods of anxiety and or stress are the cause of these weird sensations but would be extremely relieved if it was never to happen again.
Please tell me if anyone has had these attacks and has managed to find a cure or at least a method of how to contol it.
When it happens I just feel so alone and frightened, detached from the rest of society.
It's good to know i'm not alone!


I am around the same age as you - 45, you don't say if you are male or female. I am female. Your pst describes what happens to me perfectly. It first happened about 10 years ago. Only a few times over one day in a time of extreme stress. It didn't happen again until last year, once again during a time of stress. Now since last night I have had about 8 episodes and like you I feel drained, alone and "detached" (perfect word to describe it. I have lost interest in the rest of the day and find myself looking forward to bed time. I am a single mum with 3 kids and consider myself intelligent and "normal". I know that this will pass because it has before and maybe it will be years before it happens again. It just makes me feel like I am not alone and I just wanted to thank you as your words describe exactly the way I feel.
Beth

United States

#14 Jul 29, 2009
This is an old post so I wonder if you'll even read it. I have the same thing, and I'm glad I am not the only one....My deja vu/panic attacks are so vivid. Including people I've never met at places I don't recognize. These episodes have me nausiated for atleast a hour later(sometimes I do vomit). I\
AusieGirl

Artarmon, Australia

#15 Jul 30, 2009
Hey Beth, I have never been on a forum before. Don't even know if I am doing this properly. If you are responding to my message, it isn't an old post. It is only about 2 weeks ago. I have the same thing with the deja vu thing, people I've never met but somehow seem familiar. I don't vomit but lose all motivation for about 3 days after. I do feel nauseated at the time as well. So weird isn't it? Am feeling really good today but know that it could happen at any time.I have never corresponded with anyone about this. I have just been reading on the internet about hundreds of people's experiences. I couldn't believe it. I thought it was just me. Now I know it's not. I get on the internet every day just to read up about this. I have talked to my friends about this and they think I should see a neurologist. The thing is that it is now a couple of weeks later and I feel absolutely fine. I know that in my next time of stress it will happen again.But because it isn't something that I have to deal with every day makes me feel that it is not a life threatening situation but an emotional (maybe hormonal) thing? What do you think?
Lesa

Springfield, IL

#16 Aug 6, 2009
I thought I was the only one this happens to! Thank goodness I'm not alone in this. What many of you have described is exactly what's been happening to me for over 10 years.

I wish I knew what to do about it.
AusieGirl

Raymond Terrace, Australia

#17 Sep 24, 2009
Have been researching this quite a bit. For all you guys having deja vu anxiety, go to google and type in simple partial seizures. It's amazing!
AusieGirl

Wahroonga, Australia

#18 Sep 26, 2009
im only 13 i don wan this wrote:
every one if you read this and you know a treatment for this i will reward you greatly and forever owe you my email is www.pimpdady@hotmail.com
I have made a couple of comments on this forum. This was all new to me when I was around 35. So I feel for you because you are so young. Don't be frightened. My 11 year old daughter has had a couple of deja vu episodes recently and because I have had my experiences I am able to help her through it. We are actually starting a course called "cool kids" in a few weeks. It helps kids cope with anxiety. One thing you might like to look into is Fish Oil tablets (all natural). I've done a bit of research on them and have started taking them myself. They help with a lot of things such as joint health, but also have benefits for the brain. I have been taking them for about a week and so far so good. fingers crossed they help with this problem. Good luck.
Sarah

Wolverhampton, UK

#19 Oct 7, 2009
I have been having these feelings for about a year also. This past week Ive had at least 8 of the attacks/sensations a day. Last night when I was in bed it happened a good 10 times and woke me up each time (which i found really weird, because of course i was asleep!)
I do suffer from depression and i take fluoxetine, which i have done for the past 8 years now, but this is something totally different.
When it happens to me it feels like part dream part, DE ja vu, part real life. When it is happening i feel unattached from the 'real' world and very anxious.
I feel so close sometimes to solving what is going on that i could touch it, but then it ends and i am left feeling as confused as when it first started.Its like a closed door that i nearly get to open and see the other side, but before i get there its abruptly stopped.
Once this 'thing' stops i have absolutely no reconciliation of it whatsoever. Only fuzzy thoughts. I cannot pin point any part of it, however hard i try.
This is causing me great worry and extra stress (which i don't need!!) I sometimes think that I'm going mad!
I really dont feel comfortable going to my gp about this. He's a bit of a pig and i know he wont take me seriously.
So any advice will be sooooo much appreciated. Thank you.
Of course i know i need to go to him (unfortunately) but any advice and support is always welcome of course!
Sarah
Scared

Elizabeth, NJ

#21 Oct 24, 2009
I just got home from dinner with friends, through out my day i have been feeling...uneasy. I also suffer from anxiety for about 5 years now, I thought i had it under control. My doc put me on 40mg of Lexapro and Xanax when needed. BUT tonight took a scary weird turn for me. The sec i got home, i went online.
For over 5 hours i was getting random weird flashes of what felt like past dreams i had...or a feeling of deja-vu. Im scared...i dont like this feeling & scared to talk to anyone close to me about it. Am i going crazy? Im i the only one this happens to?
Eric

United States

#22 Oct 25, 2009
Re: Scared. I experience the same thing. I have had depresion/panic attacks for almost 15 years. I too thought I had it figured out until I started getting the deja vu. I used to take paxil, but now just ativan once in a while. The first time I had the deja vu thing it lasted about 15 mins. Not until years later and after I finally got off paxil did I start getting it again. Sometimes its like you said, quick feelings of deja vu that span over hours. Other times it lasts for 15 mins or so. For me it is the worst feeling because you worry it won't go away, but it always does. So if you start experiencing these feelings for longer bits of time,don't panic!

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