<quoted text>Find a believer to preach to or better yet SHUT THE HELL UP
A healthy man does not need a physician. It is the sick or dieing man that needs his disease purged from him.
Just take a look. Will only take you a few minutes. Read the third chapter of John and find that God loves you so much that He was willing to die for you, that you might escape the wrath to come and eternal judgment. Jesus did all the work to set you free from your slavery to Satan, all you have to do is hitch a ride on Jesus through faith in His sacrificial death. let Him carry you from a sinful earth to a glorious heaven. Knowing this will give greater meaning to the famous poem "footprints in the sand".
Although a bit technical, what many students find most remarkable is the concept of imputation.
Christ imputed His righteousness to believers while imputing their sin to Him. This means that despite all men being sinners and rightly deserving of eternal judgment in the lake of fire, Jesus took your penalty on Himself at the cross and then transfers to the believer His very own perfection. This perfection is how God sees the believer because His view is filtered through the perfect Christ. All people have the same state which is being a sinner. The difference is in their standing before The Almighty God, which is perfection when a person accepts Christ's payment for our sin.
This is the behind the curtain view that most Christians are never told because they can't get passed being babes "in Christ" needing the milk of the word (the easy to comprehend parts). When you delve into the scriptures seriously, the blueprint for creation and mankind opens to the diligent researcher. Each day as I continue to learn more and more of Jesus and what He did for me, I can't help but fall more and more in love with Him. Love is not an emotion, that's infatuation. Love is a choice based on perception. Your perception will drastically change once you realize that prophecy is 100% accurate proving that god is outside the mass, energy, time, space domains.
Just read John 3 a few times to get stated on a path to the greatest love you could ever know. Or not, the choice is yours. He won't force Himself on you, but those who love Him want to share the only way of escape from the lake of fire (negative) and the only way to ultimate friendship with your Creator (positive). Please think seriously on this. Your future rests in the balance. Sent to you with love, a fellow sinner, saved through faith in Jesus.