I hate antibuse

[Knee]

After reading this, I've decided antabuse is something for which I don't need. I've given up crack, heroin, smoking and benzos before (no not and went straight onto alcohol) and they were all easier to give up than alcohol for me. What this shows is everyone is different.

I know an alcoholic who DID drink on antabuse so those of you who say they are lying they are taking the antabuse are being foolish to assume everyone is like them. I've SEEN them take the antabuse and then drink and I was a drinking friend not the sobriety police they didn't have any reason to want to trick me anyway, in fact they lamented the fact the antabuse wasn't enough to stop them. After they realised they were just going to drink anyway they offered me the antabuse.

What I need is fury. Fury and anger at my own lack of control. The anger gets colder and turns to determination as I mentally masturbate about the strength of my will power, doing it alone without any counselling rent-a-friends. Being one of the tiny percentage points of people who can. I walked away from a lot of other drugs like that while they took the lives of my old friends and I walked away from those people too.

This is how I quit other drugs and is how I will stop being an alcoholic too. So if antabuse doesn't work for you, maybe something like this will.

Grow a backbone. Fact of the matter is if you REALLY want to stop you would. It's simple, which ain't the same as easy. Nobody is injecting vodka in your veins or stuffing absinthe down your throat. Your take actions based on often competing desire and impulses and the word "want" is simply which side of the line you are standing. Stop looking at it as a sliding scale, it's not. Desire is a sliding scale, want is black and white. If you want to stop you will. If you can't stop you didn't want to. Your desire to stop wasn't as strong as your desire to drink. These may seem like semantics and if they do, that's because they are. It's the concept that is important. You need to see both a sliding scale and along that somewhere is a line. I call that line "want". Doesn't matter what you call it, what matters is what side of it you are on.

If the whole "I am a victim" and "it is a disease" works for you I am happy for you but I could never look at myself that way and the benefit from my way is my life never became about "not being a smack head" or "not smocking crack". I barely even think about them anymore. I've even had the occasional cigarette without becoming a smoker again, I had 3 cigarettes last year (the whole year, not a day). I had a gram of coke the year before. Didn't turn me back into an addict. I don't want my life to become about "not being an alcoholic" either, there is so much more to life than just to centre it around a substance.

So if their way doesn't work for you, try mine. I haven't successfully applied it to alcohol yet but I have other drugs. It's time for me to stand up and be counted. I want my pride back. And I've tied it to my lack of control. How badly do you desire it? If you really want it, you will do it.

Writing this has helped me put my mind straight and I hope it resonates with at least someone else out there so it can help them too. It's just a concept after all, I can't give anyone the will power, you have to want that yourself and it's all up to you at the end of the day.

[homedeeth]

antabuse works for some people. obviously not for you

[cosmohollydoll]

shena wrote:

does antabuse have any effect on the sex drive? any one know?

No No,Antabuse will not affect your sex drive,but Alcohol can really ruin your sex life.

[lee roy]

cosmoboss wrote:

antabuse is worse than alcohol. i have an implant and almost died 3 days ago when started taking metronidazole. its pure poison which damages the liver who knows what else

hey i drank before the effects of antabuse wore off and soon afterwards was diagnosed with hep-b...anyone ever hear of that?

[lee roy]

about ten years ago i was on antabuse and i drank before it was all out of my system and was diagnosed with hep-b soon afterwards....has anyone ever heard of that?

[lee roy]

Knee wrote:

After reading this, I've decided antabuse is something for which I don't need. I've given up crack, heroin, smoking and benzos before (no not and went straight onto alcohol) and they were all easier to give up than alcohol for me. What this shows is everyone is different.
I know an alcoholic who DID drink on antabuse so those of you who say they are lying they are taking the antabuse are being foolish to assume everyone is like them. I've SEEN them take the antabuse and then drink and I was a drinking friend not the sobriety police they didn't have any reason to want to trick me anyway, in fact they lamented the fact the antabuse wasn't enough to stop them. After they realised they were just going to drink anyway they offered me the antabuse.
What I need is fury. Fury and anger at my own lack of control. The anger gets colder and turns to determination as I mentally masturbate about the strength of my will power, doing it alone without any counselling rent-a-friends. Being one of the tiny percentage points of people who can. I walked away from a lot of other drugs like that while they took the lives of my old friends and I walked away from those people too.
This is how I quit other drugs and is how I will stop being an alcoholic too. So if antabuse doesn't work for you, maybe something like this will.
Grow a backbone. Fact of the matter is if you REALLY want to stop you would. It's simple, which ain't the same as easy. Nobody is injecting vodka in your veins or stuffing absinthe down your throat. Your take actions based on often competing desire and impulses and the word "want" is simply which side of the line you are standing. Stop looking at it as a sliding scale, it's not. Desire is a sliding scale, want is black and white. If you want to stop you will. If you can't stop you didn't want to. Your desire to stop wasn't as strong as your desire to drink. These may seem like semantics and if they do, that's because they are. It's the concept that is important. You need to see both a sliding scale and along that somewhere is a line. I call that line "want". Doesn't matter what you call it, what matters is what side of it you are on.
If the whole "I am a victim" and "it is a disease" works for you I am happy for you but I could never look at myself that way and the benefit from my way is my life never became about "not being a smack head" or "not smocking crack". I barely even think about them anymore. I've even had the occasional cigarette without becoming a smoker again, I had 3 cigarettes last year (the whole year, not a day). I had a gram of coke the year before. Didn't turn me back into an addict. I don't want my life to become about "not being an alcoholic" either, there is so much more to life than just to centre it around a substance.
So if their way doesn't work for you, try mine. I haven't successfully applied it to alcohol yet but I have other drugs. It's time for me to stand up and be counted. I want my pride back. And I've tied it to my lack of control. How badly do you desire it? If you really want it, you will do it.
Writing this has helped me put my mind straight and I hope it resonates with at least someone else out there so it can help them too. It's just a concept after all, I can't give anyone the will power, you have to want that yourself and it's all up to you at the end of the day.

i completely agree with that....all of it.

[Tracy]

Lisa UK wrote:

Looking for some moral support from someone, just started antabuse and campral together (as prescribed by doctor) and on day 3, this has been the hardest weekend EVER! too scared to drink but cant get rid of that feeling that I would love one - will it get better?

It gets better. I've been on Antibuse for over eight months. Had one relapse (don't do it...just don't). Tried rehab, AA, willpower, everything. Antibuse is the only thing that has actually worked for me. Given me some distance from alcohol and allowed me to finally understand what a fucked up life I was living. It actually shocks me to think that alcohol is even legal. I've tried any number of recreational drugs, and alcohol is more effective, works faster, and is more addictive than any of them! After about five months I began to experience some anxiety and depression (perfect reasons to drink, right?) and was shocked that taking medication helped me deal with these issues in a reasonable manner. In my worst and final drinking years, I had disentegrated into a binge drinking nightmare who often ended up in an emergency room or a psych ward. Went to AA a year or so ago (again) and white knuckled it for a few months, never really staying sober, sneaking my drinking, lying to my husband, the usual cycle of destruction that brought me to the same hell time and time again. I finally went to a shrink and just told him the truth (alcoholics, if you didn't already know, rarely tell anyone the truth, particularly doctors). I just said "I'm done". "I can't beat this thing". "AA does not work for me". "Nothing does." "Help". He prescribed Antibuse, which I began taking immediately. It was like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. The simple fact was, I could no longer drink. I took it in the morning (wasn't a morning drinker, so I was always happy to take the drug then). By the time my typical triggers occured, at night, the damage was done. I couldn't drink. I'm not sure what the future holds for me, but after a lifetime of alcolism, Antibuse is the only answer that has ever worked. Good luck to all of you, and I hope you find your answer as well, whatever that answer may be!

[Erika]

Holly NJ wrote:

I am new at this I just ordered it. I want to be successful. Are there people who are and not cheating the system?

My husband has been taking antabuse for 8 successful weeks now. He is very proud of himself and our life is so much better. I give him the pill every day so he has some accountability. I would suggest that for you. It helps to have someone by your side to encourage you and also for those times when you don't want to take it. We have a 6 month old baby and it is such a relief for him to be taking this. I can finally trust him to stay with our baby alone without having borderline panic attacks. My husband chooses to take this. until he got to the point where he realized he had to stop and not flirt with alcohol anymore (after I left, with our baby, for a night and let him drink himself to a stupor) this would not have worked. If you are serious about wanting to stop then hopefully this will help you in that path. He has been through everything and nothing has working until now. We believe in the power of prayer as well and pray for God's strength every day because ultimately it's more than a pill that we'll need for complete healing. We'll pray for you too! good luck!

[beccastyle2003]

lee roy wrote:

about ten years ago i was on antabuse and i drank before it was all out of my system and was diagnosed with hep-b soon afterwards....has anyone ever heard of that?

Lee Roy... No drug causes Hep-B... that is something else entirely. Sorry :((

[TIM]

MY WIFE HAS BEEN DRINKING FOR 6 YEARS STARTED TAKING ANTI BUSE WITH OUT PROF I DONT KNOW IF SHE IS TAKING THEM AT LEAST 3 TIMES A WEEK SHE CHANGES AS IF SHE DRUNK WETS BED BUT SAYS ITS DOWN TO THE TABLETS DONT REMEMBER SHE SAYS THOUGHT IT WAS A DREAM ANYONE OUT THERE WITH THE SAME PROBLEM.

[Bea]

Nate, how does the court monitor your use if the drug?

nate wrote:

i am court ordered to take antabuse, it is definately not my choice. i dont really drink, i was attending a wedding and had a few drinks, got pulled over and was cited a dui. i am not much on taking any kind of pills, " i tore every ligament in my knee and refused to go to ther doctor nor did i take any pain pills, just let it heel on its own." is there any proof that antabuse can cause damage to the body, if so and i can prove it than i dont have to take antabuse

[Bea]

Nate, how does the court monitor your use of the drug?

[Mic]

Bea wrote:

Nate, how does the court monitor your use of the drug?

The courts monitor your use of the drug by monthly drug test and yearly physicals. You go in three times a week (for newbies) and take your dose,(whatever initial blood test and physical says you can handle), and wait 15 minutes to assure proper disolvement. The powder inside your pill is extremely distasteful, if you try to cheek the meds your face will surely show what you are doing, then you will have another felony.
I am sick and tired of hearing people say that they do not have a problem, yet they are required by court to use Antabuse services. You don't just get plucked off the street for no reason!! You HAVE to have had TWO DUI charges in 5 years. If you are a social drinker you MAY POSSIBLY get a DUI once in your life, but TWO DUI's in 5 years means you not only have a problem, but you did not learn your lesson from the FIRST time you got a DUI...STOP drinking and DRIVING!!!!
ALSO, IF you are required to take Antabuse, a drug that they tell you on your FIRST day of services will PUT YOU IN THE HOSPITAL if you drink on it, and could KILL you if you continue to drink on it, and you are on the internet looking for ways to drink...YOU MAY HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM and may just want to take the freaking help MORON!!!!