Sorry hon, but if you don't even know who you are without the drink, it makes it a bit unfair to ask us to separate out things you've said while drunk with things you really mean.<quoted text>It's sad,but your last paragraph hit the nail on the head.The last sentence is true.
You talked about getting healthy a lot more last year. I was really sad to see that sort of talk stop.
Stupid people, well, they'll probably always be stupid. Mean people have the same problem. It's a shame to see someone who seemed so open, genuine and caring to be drinking himself into looking like them.
I get that with drinking, loads of people are asking you or telling you to quit. While of course I would love to see you quit, I would be just as interested to see you take a break from it. See if you can stop for a while, get some help if you need to and then remember who you are without it.