Thought about it many of times! Doctor visits for depression. The pills they have me on to try and be happy stuff just not worth being alive anymore! They say god only puts on your shoulders what he knows you can carry. Well I've broke down! Don't want to live anymore!
I have read when you originally posted. Kept up with it even and noticed that there are people who are truly concerned just as I am. Now with the holiday quickly approaching it will probably get even tougher. I was a single parent many years ago so I know the struggles you speak of, but I always tried to put my child and what was best for my child first. It is hard, but there is joy in raising a child. Your time will come later. I can't say that I ever felt like giving up though simply because of working, being a single parent, and being alone. I can say, though, when I found that times were difficult, family was always there to help out. Sometimes I had to literally say that I needed help for them to understand, everyone has their own lives, but once I did that, they were there.
So, I do hope that if you are still struggling, that you do reach out. Especially during this most stressful time of the year. Remember to be honest and true, especially to those close to you (and your doctor). Look for the enjoyment in life through your child's eyes.