I wish I could find true happiness.
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Ivanstead

Sparta, MO

#22 Dec 14, 2012
I heard,not sure if this is just rumor,considering they don't report on suicide often. But I actually printed this off and ran down to the police station to see if they could do something because "Adam's story" didn't seem like a joke because who in their right mind would joke about killing their self? And the only thing they can do is see if this guy goes through with it,see if anyone reports a suicide first,and than they would investigate the guy's history from his computer to see if it is him.Anyways,he did go through with it,the guy they found had a wife and two kids,had shot him self,his wife came home and found him dead in the living room,laying side ways on the couch.It was over near the square in West Plains.Just ask Police officer Brandon Romans.
Hoping

West Plains, MO

#23 Dec 15, 2012
Hoping that isn't true. Life is never bad enough to commit suicide.

Since: Dec 12

Lenexa, KS

#24 Dec 15, 2012
Adam wrote:
Every day I get up,I think about how pathetic I am, I think that maybe it'll be my last day alive.Maybe I'll die,maybe I wish I'd have a heart attack,end what little existence I have will fade out.I'm tired,I'm tired of what little life I have,I'm tired of society,tired of bills,people,and I'm tired of breathing. I grew up thinking I'd be someone,better than everyone...but I realized 4 years ago that I'm no one. Some days I get up I feel maybe I'll come out of this,maybe its just a phase,maybe I'd feel something. But than I look in the mirror.I see a man,no not a man, a cowering child. I try to act like I'm happy,but than people just think I'm odd,weird.Because thats not who I am,I'm not happy.I thought being married would make me happy,I thought having two kids would make me happy.I thought having a family would make me happy. Now I'm just fighting a depression,waiting for it to go away,but it gets worse. But I just think about how it all ends. I think about not breathing,maybe if everything stopped,that will make me happy.Every day at work,some one is always giving me dirty looks,like I'm nothing,trash. And than I realize that hurts,but than again something reminds me that they're right about me.And I keep thinking about it. Now I want to know what everyone on topics thinks. Should I put an end to what little I am,or should I keep looking for reasons to keep going.I figured,sure why not.I'm not done here yet.Just a little longer. Maybe tomorrow will be my last day. Maybe on the way to work,maybe someone wont be watching where they're driving,come into my lane,or maybe I'll fall asleep at the wheel,or maybe someone will lose their nerve.
hmmm seems all the answers are here' well heres the deal' face real death one time; bet your opinions will change' its called heart and will' 10 months ago i was in coma' seen death' felt the pain' stop feeling sorry for yourself' live with life and remember theres only 1 to live' id suggest making it worth your wild for your kids and wife' and stop feeling sorry for yourself' seems folks say doctors can fix anything' bullcrap' buck up and fix it '
Adam

Branson, MO

#25 Dec 15, 2012
I'm going to order a pizza.
Democrat

Branson, MO

#26 Dec 15, 2012
Well, this person might be playing a stupid topix game for some selfish reason but this is topix and to weed out the truth from the bullcrap isn't up to me, if I got played by a topix playa, then I got played but everyone in this world means something to someone and the way I play the game of life is, that I see, hear, meet anyone for a reason and this reason someday might make sense too me down the road if I am lucky and aware enough to see that reason. One hello or kind act to a stranger goes a long long long way in my opinion. I still slap all atheist up side their head when in public I hear them preaching their hate but this has nothing to do with my path of life, this is just me and not even I am perfect just like no one in this world is. I also like casino gamblin and looking at the casino waitresses, I like sitting in a strip club sipping a drink watching strippers pole dance every once in a while, and I love looking at girls/woman in mini skirts and tight fitting jeans and sometimes daisy duke shorts but these don't make me a bad person or a person to judge another person getting their freak on, if you all know what I am trying to say. I also pray and am scared for my final judgement but am a nice person for a reason, otherwords, I have no evil thoughts to hurt anyone in anyway so maybe this is the balance of life for me, nobody will know until the end and to guess is just worry not needed. So whoever started this thread, you are important and mean something to someone, plus, look at all these topix freinds you have now, how cool is that?
Reeves

Ozark, MO

#27 Dec 16, 2012
Oh, Adam,I can relate . There is no God and dead people can't talk.
Second of all, MAN made laws, not god. MAN made laws for how we can best live on this planet. "Heaven later" has nothing to do with the REALITY of earth living NOW.
Third of all, I have had several near-death experiences and I have seen and felt what dead is really like.
Dead is infinate blackness and silence. There are no senses. You know you're not part of this world anymore. You are in the same place you are before the egg meets the sperm: nowhere and you are nothing. Then I regained consciousness and started thinking "where was "god"? I did not "see god".
I didn't even see the "hell" people kept talking about.
Death is simply nothing after you've dropped your body. No light, no sound, no senses at all. Just nothing. You live your life and you're gone. All the religious stuff is just unnessecary add-ons and instigators of conflict among humans.
At that time I felt relieved that I would not have to put up with other homo sapiens, because human beings are ugly, warlike, self-destructive, self-hating creatures that are heading for self-extinction becuase they are so horrible.So if you want to off yourself,be our guest,no one can stop you.
concerned wife

United States

#28 Dec 17, 2012
I pray that this Adam is not my husband. i wouldnt know what to do with myself if he ended his life. i have been very sick the last few years and he has been amazing with all the love and support he gives me and our kids. its weird i read this today and found a sad note from him about how tired and sad he is. he has been sick himself but works 50hrs a wk. does all the house work and takes care of our grandson at niteGod i pray he knows how much we need him to stay with us
Voice of Reason

Forsyth, MO

#29 Dec 17, 2012
Reeves wrote:
Oh, Adam,I can relate . There is no God and dead people can't talk.
Second of all, MAN made laws, not god. MAN made laws for how we can best live on this planet. "Heaven later" has nothing to do with the REALITY of earth living NOW.
Third of all, I have had several near-death experiences and I have seen and felt what dead is really like.
Dead is infinate blackness and silence. There are no senses. You know you're not part of this world anymore. You are in the same place you are before the egg meets the sperm: nowhere and you are nothing. Then I regained consciousness and started thinking "where was "god"? I did not "see god".
I didn't even see the "hell" people kept talking about.
Death is simply nothing after you've dropped your body. No light, no sound, no senses at all. Just nothing. You live your life and you're gone. All the religious stuff is just unnessecary add-ons and instigators of conflict among humans.
At that time I felt relieved that I would not have to put up with other homo sapiens, because human beings are ugly, warlike, self-destructive, self-hating creatures that are heading for self-extinction becuase they are so horrible.So if you want to off yourself,be our guest,no one can stop you.
I can tell you are a very wise person. Your words have really had a positive impact on people everywhere.

Infact, you may even be Adam. It is hard to tell the difference from one level headed guy to next I suppose :)
Voice of Reason

Forsyth, MO

#30 Dec 17, 2012
concerned wife wrote:
I pray that this Adam is not my husband. i wouldnt know what to do with myself if he ended his life. i have been very sick the last few years and he has been amazing with all the love and support he gives me and our kids. its weird i read this today and found a sad note from him about how tired and sad he is. he has been sick himself but works 50hrs a wk. does all the house work and takes care of our grandson at niteGod i pray he knows how much we need him to stay with us
Adam's wife- it will be OK obviously this Adam is a great human being. Not above posting a fake post as his wife to try get sympathy.......but great still the same. You just in there, he sounds like he provides a lot of emotional support and instills "HOPE" to his family.
Is it

West Plains, MO

#31 Dec 17, 2012
Adam wrote:
Every day I get up,I think about how pathetic I am, I think that maybe it'll be my last day alive.Maybe I'll die,maybe I wish I'd have a heart attack,end what little existence I have will fade out.I'm tired,I'm tired of what little life I have,I'm tired of society,tired of bills,people,and I'm tired of breathing. I grew up thinking I'd be someone,better than everyone...but I realized 4 years ago that I'm no one. Some days I get up I feel maybe I'll come out of this,maybe its just a phase,maybe I'd feel something. But than I look in the mirror.I see a man,no not a man, a cowering child. I try to act like I'm happy,but than people just think I'm odd,weird.Because thats not who I am,I'm not happy.I thought being married would make me happy,I thought having two kids would make me happy.I thought having a family would make me happy. Now I'm just fighting a depression,waiting for it to go away,but it gets worse. But I just think about how it all ends. I think about not breathing,maybe if everything stopped,that will make me happy.Every day at work,some one is always giving me dirty looks,like I'm nothing,trash. And than I realize that hurts,but than again something reminds me that they're right about me.And I keep thinking about it. Now I want to know what everyone on topics thinks. Should I put an end to what little I am,or should I keep looking for reasons to keep going.I figured,sure why not.I'm not done here yet.Just a little longer. Maybe tomorrow will be my last day. Maybe on the way to work,maybe someone wont be watching where they're driving,come into my lane,or maybe I'll fall asleep at the wheel,or maybe someone will lose their nerve.
Is this the same Adam that tied to kill himself a year or so ago?
concerned wife

United States

#32 Dec 17, 2012
Voice of Reason wrote:
<quoted text>
Adam's wife- it will be OK obviously this Adam is a great human being. Not above posting a fake post as his wife to try get sympathy.......but great still the same. You just in there, he sounds like he provides a lot of emotional support and instills "HOPE" to his family.
im not sure if i am this Adams wife or not but i do know my husband is under alot of stress and very tired right now. as i said i just pray that my husband is not this adam
goober

Branson, MO

#33 Dec 18, 2012
smoke Pot then.
butterfly of hope

Ozark, MO

#34 Jan 1, 2013
Adam wrote:
Every day I get up,I think about how pathetic I am, I think that maybe it'll be my last day alive.Maybe I'll die,maybe I wish I'd have a heart attack,end what little existence I have will fade out.I'm tired,I'm tired of what little life I have,I'm tired of society,tired of bills,people,and I'm tired of breathing. I grew up thinking I'd be someone,better than everyone...but I realized 4 years ago that I'm no one. Some days I get up I feel maybe I'll come out of this,maybe its just a phase,maybe I'd feel something. But than I look in the mirror.I see a man,no not a man, a cowering child. I try to act like I'm happy,but than people just think I'm odd,weird.Because thats not who I am,I'm not happy.I thought being married would make me happy,I thought having two kids would make me happy.I thought having a family would make me happy. Now I'm just fighting a depression,waiting for it to go away,but it gets worse. But I just think about how it all ends. I think about not breathing,maybe if everything stopped,that will make me happy.Every day at work,some one is always giving me dirty looks,like I'm nothing,trash. And than I realize that hurts,but than again something reminds me that they're right about me.And I keep thinking about it. Now I want to know what everyone on topics thinks. Should I put an end to what little I am,or should I keep looking for reasons to keep going.I figured,sure why not.I'm not done here yet.Just a little longer. Maybe tomorrow will be my last day. Maybe on the way to work,maybe someone wont be watching where they're driving,come into my lane,or maybe I'll fall asleep at the wheel,or maybe someone will lose their nerve.
I hope this is fake but if not , focus on your family , do things as a family like taking the kids to the park , when it snows go sledding or have snowball fights , plant a garden, go fishing yes even in the winter but with the family stay active . Don't end anything , it's not up to you but to the one who created you to decide your death date . Shake of people who stare you down or better yet start staring at them and say something silly like it wasn't me or whatever humor you can to lighten things up a bit . Your wife and kids are obvious reasons to keep going . If need be change scenery move elsewhere , if you like the country go that direction , buy a horse for the kids use some imagination to make things fun for the whole family , if you like the city and need a better job go that direction take a leap of faith do something you've never done before and never look back nor doubt yourself over a lack of funds . Its impossible to go forward if your thinking negative or looking backwards . I know depression is real but it can be fought and won . One last thing before I go , smile while you have teeth now have a happy new year and look forward to it being the best year ever .

Since: Aug 11

Location hidden

#35 Jan 1, 2013
Does not happen
FUall

Sparta, MO

#36 Jan 1, 2013
Did Adam whack himself yet? What the hell is wrong with people whacking themselves, what a bunch of selfish pricks. And what the hell is wrong with people to give this guy advise like go to the park, smile and be happy. now that kind of bullshit talk will make anyone whack themselves. Adam, stand up and be a man, if life is too hard to handle around here then move away and start a new life somewhere else, it really makes a diffrence when you change everything and nobody knows you. If you can't afford to move then go check into the homeless shelter in your new town and start from there, you will be on your feet in no time.
Yep

West Plains, MO

#37 Jan 1, 2013
FUall wrote:
Did Adam whack himself yet? What the hell is wrong with people whacking themselves, what a bunch of selfish pricks. And what the hell is wrong with people to give this guy advise like go to the park, smile and be happy. now that kind of bullshit talk will make anyone whack themselves. Adam, stand up and be a man, if life is too hard to handle around here then move away and start a new life somewhere else, it really makes a diffrence when you change everything and nobody knows you. If you can't afford to move then go check into the homeless shelter in your new town and start from there, you will be on your feet in no time.
Yeah, take advice from someone called FUall.
FlowersForAdam

Hollister, MO

#38 Jan 1, 2013
Dear Adam Well,I know that you're not able to hear us Adam,that you've passed away,I know shooting yourself...as we've all heard that you did and succeeded in committing suicide,we hope that you've found the peace that you were looking for and that we're all apologetic that you couldn't find the strength to move forward in life. I'm praying for you and that God sees that you find peace and has mercy on your soul and the sin that you've committed and grants you that peace. Good luck and God Bless. We love you.
poop head

Branson, MO

#39 Jan 2, 2013
FlowersForAdam wrote:
Dear Adam Well,I know that you're not able to hear us Adam,that you've passed away,I know shooting yourself...as we've all heard that you did and succeeded in committing suicide,we hope that you've found the peace that you were looking for and that we're all apologetic that you couldn't find the strength to move forward in life. I'm praying for you and that God sees that you find peace and has mercy on your soul and the sin that you've committed and grants you that peace. Good luck and God Bless. We love you.
well aren't you just cute *claps like a retarded seal *
poop head

Branson, MO

#40 Jan 2, 2013
FUall wrote:
Did Adam whack himself yet? What the hell is wrong with people whacking themselves, what a bunch of selfish pricks. And what the hell is wrong with people to give this guy advise like go to the park, smile and be happy. now that kind of bullshit talk will make anyone whack themselves. Adam, stand up and be a man, if life is too hard to handle around here then move away and start a new life somewhere else, it really makes a diffrence when you change everything and nobody knows you. If you can't afford to move then go check into the homeless shelter in your new town and start from there, you will be on your feet in no time.
Oh look another cute one , arf arf , where'd you come from ? Your not one of them wrong hole ranch boys are you ?

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