Thank you so much for your kind words as you don't know how much they mean to me.<quoted text>
I believe you are sincere and did everything you could do to help all of your children. The youngest child was not open to your guidance, love and caring for reasons that have nothing to do with anything you did. Some children are like that and no one has a clear cut reason why. Social workers, priests, therapists all agree on this one point. You can be a sterling parent but there is a chance that a child will not choose the correct path. The only thing left for you to do is to be there to support her(Not monetarily) emotionally when and if she reaches out to you. Some kids will only learn the hard way and some never learn at all. NONE of this is your fault. So if you are beating yourself up over it, stop. Enjoy your life, every day of it, and do so with a clear conscience. God Bless you!
It breaks a mother's heart to have to sit back and watch your child go down the wrong path in life. This child is the product of a second marriage and I raised her on my own ever since she was 18 months old. She use to be a loving and thoughtful child until she was about 30 years old and started hanging around with the wrong people which have had more influence on her than the moral upbring I gave her. She does drugs (crack)on an recreational basis, and uses other people to get what she wants, and uses language that would put a truck driver to shame. I am ashamed to even say she is my daughter. It is hard to sit back and watch her warped the mind of a loving little 4 year old boy who she has convinced that his Grandma doesn't love him because..........usually it is about how I can't play with him anymore because of my age and illnesses).
Thank you again for being so understanding.