Erwin Howard: 'I thought: God, I killed her'

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Erwin Howard is overcome with emotion as he describes the killing of his former wife, popular El Segundo Realtor Julia "Deede" Keller, in a downtown Los Angeles courtroom Monday. Full Story
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not enough

Chino, CA

#1 Sep 9, 2008
how can we ever release someone capable of murder ?...she's gone forever and he'll be free in 12 years. he's a real dirtbag.
Forgiveness

Goleta, CA

#2 Sep 9, 2008
It's called forgiveness. Holding on to anger or resentment only ends up hurting and eating you up in the end.
No Promise Here

Los Angeles, CA

#3 Sep 9, 2008
So if the family and prosecutors have agreed to not oppose any future parole hearings, it does not mean that others can step up to the plate and demand that he serve his entire sentence rather than be allowed to get out early.
This is what society is about, the rest of us can demand that a killer not be released to damage any other innocent people. He obviously has a desperate need to control others, and if that can't be "cured", treated or managed in the twelve years that he is incarcerated, then by all means other people should step forward for the memory of DeeDee and preservation of any other woman he might befriend if he is free.
Justice for Homicide Victims, Doris Tate Foundation and other such groups exist exactly for this reason. Thank God for these wonderful people who serve others and protect each of us - most of them have suffered extreme losses themselves and work so that you and I don't travel that path.
Judeca

Irving, TX

#4 Sep 9, 2008
"Lewin said he always believed Howard was a good man who had done a terrible act. Speaking directly to Howard, Lewin said he thought Howard was horrified by his own actions, and couldn't face them until now.

"I have no doubt you would trade places with her," Lewin said as Howard nodded. "I believe you have already redeemed yourself to some degree."

It's a shame others can't learn from her family - which is forgiveness. For some there is no such thing as 'enough' punishement. May God not be so hard on you when you are judged.
Peace for her

Lomita, CA

#5 Sep 9, 2008
The horrors that await him in prison! He knowingly made the decision to act on his self-serving urge to control a woman. Perhaps he will get to learn what it must have felt like for her. I hope his fellow inmates having him fearing for his life every single day for the next 12 years...may the screams he hears each night keep him from getting sleep.
No Promise Here

Los Angeles, CA

#6 Sep 9, 2008
Judeca wrote:
"Lewin said he always believed Howard was a good man who had done a terrible act. Speaking directly to Howard, Lewin said he thought Howard was horrified by his own actions, and couldn't face them until now.
"I have no doubt you would trade places with her," Lewin said as Howard nodded. "I believe you have already redeemed yourself to some degree."
It's a shame others can't learn from her family - which is forgiveness. For some there is no such thing as 'enough' punishement. May God not be so hard on you when you are judged.
What does "forgiveness" have to do with insuring protections of others? You are way off track and it appears that you have your own issues to promote rather than attack and deem others less worthy of religious attributes that you spout. You've got punishment mixed up with my desire for protection, go do some volunteer work behind bars and forgive all you want on your own time.
As for my own judgement, you've crossed over a line but I'll even forgive you your trespass and pray that you find other weapons to hoist rather than abusing the gifts given by higher powers.
wow

Costa Mesa, CA

#7 Sep 9, 2008
I cant believe this article. why is everyone trying to down play the fact that this man killed his exwife? it doesnt matter how sorry he is or if he never hits another person in his life. he killed her. murder is murder. if this is what our society calls a "good man who made a bad choice" then we have a LONG way to go.
Abe

Lawndale, CA

#8 Sep 9, 2008
Did you watch the video? Why did he tape her mouth shut and tape her legs and arms. This was no accident.
Knew Erwin

Los Angeles, CA

#9 Sep 9, 2008
After watching the family forgive him the way they did, after his confession, I feel justice and truth have prevailed. The prosecutors own words pretty much establish that.

It's a shame he didn't come clean right after she passed-out. If he had called for help, maybe she could have been recicitated (sp?).

To the more judgemental on this board like 'wow,' maybe you've picked the wrong case to make your point? A point I don't necessarily disagree with.
Dont Be Soft

La Crescenta, CA

#10 Sep 9, 2008
Forgiveness wrote:
It's called forgiveness. Holding on to anger or resentment only ends up hurting and eating you up in the end.
Forgiveness to someone for breaking your window, stealing $20, or saying something hurtful is one thing. Forgiving someone for murder is unthinkable. It's overly soft people like you who cause people like this man to see the light of day, instead of getting the needle or the chamber like he deserves. Make harsher pentalties and watch the violence fade away. When there were hangings, men thought twice before killing someone or stealing horses. We need to get back to handing out harsher punishments for such crimes. Our only hangup is the soft, liberal, ACLU types who forgive and forget.
Truthfully

La Crescenta, CA

#11 Sep 9, 2008
Judeca wrote:
"Lewin said he always believed Howard was a good man who had done a terrible act. Speaking directly to Howard, Lewin said he thought Howard was horrified by his own actions, and couldn't face them until now.
"I have no doubt you would trade places with her," Lewin said as Howard nodded. "I believe you have already redeemed yourself to some degree."
It's a shame others can't learn from her family - which is forgiveness. For some there is no such thing as 'enough' punishement. May God not be so hard on you when you are judged.
I don't kill people, so "God's judgement" as you put it, isn't something I am overly stressed about!
lynn

Los Angeles, CA

#12 Sep 10, 2008
twelve year and they agree not to show up for his parole then. she is gone forever. how a family could do that i will never understand.
amazing

United States

#13 Nov 25, 2008
I worked with him for many years and cant believe that he could do something like that..My heart goes out to the family and friends ..
Counting my Blessings

United States

#14 Dec 26, 2008
I dated Erwin for about 10 months in 1985. I am not surprised that those who knew him socially are shocked he was capable of murdering his ex-wife. Unfortunately, my only surprise is that he took 19 years to become lethal. I just learned of this case, and feel some sense of guilt that I never blew the whistle on him. He can be very sweet, soft-spoken and charming. He is also the only man I've ever dated who hit me. This occurred after many months of quietly jealous and controlling performances at social events, and in a jealous fit because I was taking a Jewish female friend to Yom Kippur services with me instead of him. I broke up with him after that, and he stalked me for several weeks, even coming down from Santa Barbara to LA to do so.

Incidentally, at the time I was dating him, he concealed, for awhile, the fact that he was in the country illegally. I helped him get an immigration lawyer. He eventually got amnesty. Gotta question some of our immigration laws, too.

Society needs to be protected from men like Erwin, who cannot control their emotions and use them as an excuse to hurt women. I only wish I had known about this; I would have offered to appear as a character witness for the prosecution. He needs to be put away.
billy the builder

Los Angeles, CA

#15 Dec 26, 2008
This mans' story reminds me of Tweekers. They steal from you and then stay around and help you look for the stolen goods. Didn't he help everyone put up posters and help look for his wife? The family forgiving him is not only unbelievable, it must be a typo or something. God says we are to forgive, there must be a good reason for it, but damn! This family has a lot more strength than anyone I can think of. Revenge ? I suppose if you wait long enough these people get what is coming to them.
stranger

San Diego, CA

#16 Dec 27, 2008
cut his balls off,

“Don't Sass Me, Boy!”

Since: Jul 08

Firebaugh, CA

#17 Dec 27, 2008
stranger wrote:
cut his balls off,
Make him eat them.
Bonesaw

Riverside, CA

#18 Dec 27, 2008
That is IF there is a god but killing someone unless truly by accident or in self defense is unforgivable.
Judeca wrote:
"Lewin said he always believed Howard was a good man who had done a terrible act. Speaking directly to Howard, Lewin said he thought Howard was horrified by his own actions, and couldn't face them until now.
"I have no doubt you would trade places with her," Lewin said as Howard nodded. "I believe you have already redeemed yourself to some degree."
It's a shame others can't learn from her family - which is forgiveness. For some there is no such thing as 'enough' punishement. May God not be so hard on you when you are judged.
uglysouthbay

Downey, CA

#19 Jan 6, 2009
not enough wrote:
how can we ever release someone capable of murder ?...she's gone forever and he'll be free in 12 years. he's a real dirtbag.
12 years is a long time
uglysouthbay

Downey, CA

#20 Jan 6, 2009
Bonesaw wrote:
That is IF there is a god but killing someone unless truly by accident or in self defense is unforgivable.<quoted text>
I think killing racists is okay don't you? and for those that take that as an opportunity to say illegals, YOU'RE what I mean.

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