You used me now I have no motivation to even try. Fuck my meds, fuck my life. I hope u feel really great doing me like his. I would of done anything for you. Now I'm nothing. I could tell u acted like there was someone else when u had me over the other night. U just wanted smoke, and u never cared how it would affect me or my feelings. Now I give up. I don't even care about living. Forget my medicine. forget my life. It was all lies and all u wanted was some smoke. You Never cared like I thought you did. Amy was right. And this shit hurts so bad. You been getting all my emails and they mean nothing to you. I thought u was a better person than that. now I'm alone fighting this addiction. and its the final days and you don't even care.