For someone who is supposed to have superior intelligence, you made your statement as clear as mud.... i.e., "reared (read "tortured") by a wife". Are you saying your father's wife was not your mother? If so, wouldn't step-mother be the proper description? Or were you married at a very young age and reared by your wife? Or possibly, you ARE referring to your mother in a very unloving way.<quoted text>
Obviously, you were not reared (read "tortured") by a wife and child abusing father. Count yourself lucky.
It is becoming more clear as to what caused your psychosis.