You really are an idiot. You're telling this to a moron who wants to meet up with and beat up people who don't agree with him. You're telling this to a mental midget who pours drinks over strangers because they razz him a little at a bar. You're telling this to a person who has been arrested not once, but TWICE for domestiv violence!!<quoted text>
BN this guy is one sick puppy. He may need professional help. I wonder if he even has a woman in his life? If he is this abusive to me can you imagine what it would be like to live with this personality?
Both you & your buddy are the ones who need help. You can try and pretend all you want, you're miserable. Anyone who was as happy as you CLAIM to be, wouldn't have to brag the way you do about the people you know, the money you have, the places you've traveled, the homes you own, etc, etc.
Your buddy needs help with his violent tendancies, you for self esteem. I really do both of you seek it. Maybe you're not as bad as you appear here. But if you can't recognize this in yourself, it's not going to get better.