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[omg]

Is this the part where we are supposed to cheer?

[Guest]

Bobby Eddings is playing many women right now

[playa hater]

Aren't we off topic...

[JR Briggs]

I really do appreciate the support and things are going better. To be honest, I wish that I could talk to Nikki face-to-face. I think if she would allow me to do that, even once. I think she would be surprised. There is a lot that I need to tell her. I filed the divorce because I do want her to be happy. If I love her enough, let her go. I don't want sides to be taken. I did make a lot of friends in the short time that I hung around where she goes to school at and I try to talk to them. And to finally get to see my baby-girl for the first time since June 11th, I'm truly ecstatic for that. As for the tears, grown men cry all the time. It's not a fact of growing up. My deceased uncle cried over his daughter all of the time. God bless and rest my Uncle Nolen. He was a VERY good man as well as a father. I'm making my changes ultimately for me, but subliminally for BOTH of my daughters and maybe even for Nikki, which by the way looked SO beautiful at the hearing. I know I messed up, but this is the first step to rebuilding a bridge that was burned down. I wish I knew who "I spoke to Nikki" really is. Anyway, I'm even reading a book called "Prayer is a Holy Occupation." Very good stuff in this book.

[I spoke to Nikki]

Why do you want to know who I am so badly? I'm not Nikki, if that's what you're thinking. But she does read this. I think you should know that it was HER that granted your visitation. Not the judge. Her attorney told her you wanted visitation and she said yes. But you still have a long way to go. She'll never fully trust you again. I know Nikki really well, and I think (and I'm not telling you what to do. this is just my opinion,) now what you should do is move forward. Sever your ties with your past, and hers. Focus on the present and the future. Find happiness for yourself, and let her be happy even if it means with someone else. Be with someone else if that's what you need to do to move on. I'm not meaning to sound harsh in anyway. I hope you're not offended.

[JR Briggs]

Well, I can't bring myself to be with anyone else right now. It took me a very long time to get over my last relationship. And the reason I ask who is because I want to be able to talk to you as well outside of topix and thank you more for the support. I'm not asking for sympathy. That is the last thing I'm asking for and if you claim that you don't hate me for what has happened with all of this, why not. I made a lot of friends when I was with her and I wish that they would reach out. Message me, see how I'm doing, check up on me, visit me at Pizza Hut. I need those friends just as much as I need a friend period. I'm SO happy that she said yes to visitation. What still hurts is that I can't even see photos of our daughter. I can't sever ties with my past and hers because Stormi is not only part of OUR future, but also OUR past as well. I am trying to find happiness for myself but I need to explain to her so I have no past coming back to me in the future. It took me over two years of being single til Nikki came into my life. She is actually the one who restored the meaning of love for me. Even after burning me with a cigarette while I had a sunburn. LOL I do want her to be happy as well, that is why I'm letting her go as a married couple. I know I still have a long way to go, but even some recognition would be nice and kind. Again, there is so much I need and should tell her, and none of it to be trying to start an argument. I'm ready to respect and support her and her endeavors. I do want her to be happy. She should want the same for me. That is why I'm so happy that she granted me a chance to be a part of Stormi's life. I hope that one day, I can be able to have both of my daughters with me one day together. I do focus on the present and the future, but I still have to reflect on the past to be determined to do better. Still, I wish I could talk to her. Someway, somehow. I may have seemed like a danger then, but I'm no longer a danger in any way.

[JR Briggs]

At least we did have some great times. May have not been a lot, but we did have some. A long time ago, she asked me to write a song about her. I finally wrote it a couple of months ago. One day, I'll put it as a note on my facebook, which I have to make more secure from hackers, and maybe one day, she'll be able to read it. You never forget your first. I surely won't. I can't act like she never existed. That would be absurd and a lie to myself and others. I still wear my ring to this day. Even during my shift now.

[I spoke to Nikki]

Nikki is requesting that we take this discussion elsewhere. I got your email from her, and I'm going to send you an email. (I don't want my name brought up on anything so it will be a fake account.)

[JR Briggs]

Ok. That's fine. I will do that. Which e-mail?

[omg]

Thank God. Now we can all move on.

[JR Briggs]

Maybe you should be the one moving on . . . to a different topic that you can complain on. You know, most of things you posted was very abusive to this site and it's people like you that give the reason why topix is never a good site. If you have nothing positive to say, hold your tongue. There will be a greater power to judge your actions. I'm sure you are probably a good person, but not on this site.

[omg]

Thank you. I feel so much better now.

[JR Briggs]

For what?

[omg]

For your sterling evaluation.

[omg]

Its given me a whole new outlook on life.

[JR Briggs]

I'm not even gonna consider that as a serious response. Let me know when you are in my position. That is when you HAVE to change your outlook on life. Gosh, I can't stand this site.

[omg]

been there. Just didn't whine about it to everybody.

[JR Briggs]

I never whined. I defended after someone telling me that I was mentioned in four different threads. And lucky me, I fond all four. A friend of mine shot himself Saturday because he felt he lost everything. His brother, Gerald, passed away a little less than four months ago. He was suffering over his brother's death and then his girlfriend decided to take his child away from him. He shot himself in front of her because he didn't believe there was anything left for him. I feel for him and he is in my prayers. I also pray for the child. His girlfriend is still in the stress unit at OMC in West Plains. Funeral is later today (Friday). At least the brothers are reunited.

[omg]

Well that is sad.

[Heather]

J.r. I don't know why your wasting your time and breath on this website explaining yourself to people. Your a good guy and you deserve the best and what is right. Keep your head up because things are already looking up :)