No truer statements have ever been posted by you, Barn, than these very words you have finally realized and admitted to! Words we have all known to be true, but never dreamed you would come to accept about yourself.<quoted text>
BTW, You are correct again, I am confused, confused as to why you would ask if a question you dreamed is correct.
How the hell would I know?
Recognizing and admitting your confusion and lack of understanding are hopefully your first steps to recovery!